2007, a year of mistakes.

2007 will be history soon. an end to another chapter, and the beginning of a new chapter on a fresh new page. and when we look back, it's like studying our past and understanding ourselves. as we learn the mistakes from our past, all we can do is to not make the same mistakes in future. our history is important, it's like our treasure. without it, we would be nothing, we would be living without a purpose.
this year passed like a speeding bullet. things really went on smoothly for me for the first few months, really enjoyed that period of time. and there was FOC too, it's something that i really treasure loads, all the hard work, all the good times.
but the nightmare began when school started. year 2! firstly, i started the semester with a slacky attitude, like super slack. and in the end, struggling like mad just to pass all my modules. yup, it's my fault. i played so much that i forgot to balance both work and play. thus, having a GPA of 1.53 although i passed all modules.
secondly, i'm really unlucky. i got seperated from my classmates whom i knew during year 1, and there was no one whom i can fully rely on. especially last semester, when most of the time i walked into emart, no one was there. practicals and tutorials were like super torturing. but at least this semester is abit better.
i feel so different now. i think i am abit anti-social already, seriously. i can't interact and make new friends. i get so attached to my present friends that i forgot how to make new friends at the same time. for example, NRA. i hardly ever interact with anyone there. those whom i know are basically just "hi-bye" friends.
but i'm glad i have my friends in school who never fail to help keep that smile on my face. friends who i can count on. without them, i seriously don't know who to turn to. thanks for tolerating my nonsense and everything!
alright, i guess i'm gonna keep this post short. 2007 has been a year of mistakes for me. alot of things went wrong for me, i messed up, and i repeated the mistakes again. and by the time i realised it, i was already in big shit.
as 2008 approaches, i'm having mixed feelings. yup, i did talk about this in my previous post. i want to start afresh, start the new year with new resolutions and also those that i didn't fulfill this year. but at the same time, i'm afraid of making mistakes. it's hard to explain, but i feel that i'm not ready.
but i guess i don't have much of a choice. the new year is approaching and i got to be prepared for anything, be it good or bad. i've got to learn to make decisions. and no matter what decision i make, i must be ready for whatever consequences. i hope 2008 would be a better year.
guess i shall stop here then,
Happy New Year everyone!

Merry Christmas!

My Grown Up Christmas List - Kelly Clarkson

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree

Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth
(there'd be)

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up christmas list

This is my grown up christmas list


Merry Christmas everyone!
i love this song, there's like super loads of meaning in it.
anyway, how did i spend my christmas this year?
well, nothing much actually. managed to meet up with steph, jeremiah, denyse and nikki to watch national treasure. city of gold! imagine having that in singapore, let's say at bukit timah hill?
can't wait for the 3rd movie. something to do with pg 47...
after the movie, it was home sweet home for all of us, as it was late and most of us wanted to go home and sleep.

presents!!! this year, only got 3. but better than nothing. 1st was a t shirt my sister gave me. 2nd, perfume from nikki and it's for females! 3rd was an orange aluminium bottle from lendl. there's snoopy! thanks for the presents!!!
i've been receiving more than i've been giving this year. didn't plan for christmas, and didn't expect to receive presents either. in the end, didn't give any presents.
well, there's still next year!

a few more days till the end of 2007.
mixed feelings. somehow, i want this year to end soon. but on the other hand, i'm not really looking forward to the new year.
arghh, shall talk about it next time, which is my "end-of-year" blog entry. (wow! like so grand.)

problem fixed!

yay! problem fixed!
i said that i would wait till school reopens to fix the problem with the icon thing.
but i couldn't wait till school starts, which is like next year.
so i went to school just now to see whether my laptop has a problem or not.
and once i reached there, i explained what happened and everything to the guy. and i turned on my laptop. and i waited for the icon to show the problem, which is supposed to happen in 5 minutes.
but after 15 minutes, nothing happened!!! everything was still fine.
and so, i realised that my laptop was working perfectly fine the whole time.
the problem lies with the modem! i kinda wasted a trip to school, and returned home only to know that my modem is the one causing the problem.
i called starhub in the end. and the problem was solved. as the person on the line was giving me instructions, he analysed the problem and in the end, his solution was to use a pin/pen to press the reset button.
and it worked! thank goodness. and now everything is back to normal.

laptop screwed up!

ahhh! finally, an update. well, that's because there's nothing to blog about for the past few days.
but finally, i can blog about something.
my laptop!
it's screwed up! something's wrong with it. and it all happened today at about 4+ pm.
usually when you connect to the internet, there will be an icon at the bottom right hand corner saying that your laptop is connected right?
but here's the problem. the icon shows me that my laptop isn't connected to the internet. but in fact, i am connected to the internet. i can access it as normal, but seeing that icon which states "not connected" really makes me irritated.
initially, i thought the problem lies with the modem. but the modem is functioning perfectly.
i tried rebooting my laptop like loads of times! for the first 5 to 10 minutes, the icon will show that i am connected to the internet. but after that, it will show "not connected".
and what's more irritating is that, as i continue to chat, read stuffs, watch anime and even blog about this entry...i keep getting disconnected! eg. msn
it's really weird, and irritating! and i know nuts about fixing these sort of problems. which means i don't know what's the problem with my laptop, and i don't know how to fix the problem which is unknown to me.
i need someone professional to help me!!!
guess i won't be coming online often, all because of the stupid problem.
i shall wait until school reopens to seek professional help.

well deserved 2 weeks break?

finally, common tests have ended...with a horrible ending.
yes, i meant CCTA.
i've got nothing much to say about the paper, it's just killer.
there's a really big difference between those who actually did the calculations for their practicals and those who just copied the answers from those who did it.
and i'm not gonna pass the paper for sure. and the reason is clear.
if i could get 15/50 for the paper, i would be satisifed.
and if i get 20, it would be a miracle. so what about 25?
totally impossible!
but whatever it is, it's over. so no point talking about it already.
2 weeks of holidays, not the time for me to slack off too much. because there's work to be done.
rest is rest, and work is work. got to make use of the holidays to brush up on my MMB and CCTA. and there's not much time when the new year starts, like about 5 weeks of school, and then, final exams. it's scary.

anyway, talking about CCTA. just got the allocation results for FYP a few days back.
Establishment of mammalian cells in serum-free media & scale-up.
yup, that's the topic.
and it has really got alot to do with CCTA, from cell culturing to aseptic techniques to bioreactor!
the topic was not in our (denyse and me) top 5 choices, but it's alright. it sounds good anyway.
well, it gives me 1 more reason to brush up on my CCTA.
and denyse and me are really lucky to have a nice lecturer too. CBE lecturer, dr tan.

tilapia growth project has officially ended! finally, no more measuring of tilapias, no more feeding, no more changing of water, no more worrying whether they will die or not.
but there's still some presentation to be done about the fish project.

ah crap! i've got this sudden craving for laksa in the middle of the night!
bye!

focus!

yes, i'm supposed to be studying for tomorrow's CCTA paper.
but i'm tired, i can't focus, not really in the mood to study, and i felt the need to blog.
1 week of studying, and i'm gettting sick of it.
monday was aquaculture paper! i must say it's really easy, i'm not being over confident. but it really is easy, you can literally cut and paste the answers from the lecture notes onto the test paper. but the sad thing is that...i made 2 stupid mistakes! and it would cost me 8 marks! although easy, but i don't think i will do that well for the paper.
wednesday, immunology! the paper was alright, easier compared to last semester's common test paper. made about 2 stupid mistakes again, but those questions are 1 mark questions, so i'm not too affected by them.
MMB paper just now...was killer. the paper wasn't hard. and i just don't like the idea of having 40 MCQ questions, too many questions. but anyway, i guess the fault lies on me. didn't manage to finish studying all the chapters properly. had a really tough time trying to focus on wednesday night. so much to study and so little time, plus diarrhea (shouldn't have eaten laksa for dinner). gave up studying at about 12+am as i was too tired to continue. i know for sure that i would fail this paper, just hope that i don't do too badly. oh well, there's still another chance for me to pull my grade up, just got to concentrate a little more on MMB.
hope that tomorrow's CCTA paper wouldn't be too difficult. just 1 more day! i've got to endure!
and after that, i would be 2 weeks of holidays!

french & mugging!

finally, 2nd duration of IS lessons started on thursday.
this time round, french!
i think french is such a nice language, but it's really difficult to learn.
especially the numbers and alphabets. i was like having a bit of trouble pronouncing.
there was also oral assessment too. had abit of trouble with the words at first, but in the end, i think i did pretty alright. practised over and over again.

Je m'appelle Joel.
it means "I am Joel".

can't wait for the next lesson lah! my teacher is really nice! she actually bought cookies from carrefour and she wanted us to pronounce the name of any cookie we wanted. and of course we got to pronounce it right before she allowed us to take one.
i chose the cookie named 'togolais royal', if i've remembered it correctly.
i think it's really nice, i was like starving during the lesson actually. my stomach was growling non stop.
and after french lesson, mugging time in school! managed to go through and understand most of the lecture notes for MMB, left with 2 more lecture notes! i'm so proud of myself for being so productive!

common tests are next week!
and i've still got quite alot to study.
aquaculture, immunology, CCTA and MMB.
there's loads to study for aquaculture, about 3/4 of the entire lecture notes!!!
immunology is killer! all the antibodies, T cells, B cells, macrophages, complements and so on.
read through CCTA lecture notes, not alot to memorise, but alot to understand. got to simplify the lecture notes and turn it into MY notes.
but i'm glad i've gone through quite alot for MMB! =D
1 week of mugging!
i can do it if i want to!


bonsoir!

black christmas.

Black Christmas.

call me stupid, retarded or whatsoever.
because i think black christmas is kinda cool.
just thinking of a black christmas tree, with silver decorations and with presents wrapped in black with silver/gold ribbons tied around them.
i think it's so much better than the green tree, with loads of horrible colored decorations hung on it. and with presents that are wrapped with colorful wrapping paper. it just makes everything look so messy.
and it's also much better than white tree and presents. white's just too plain.
black. simple yet sophisticated.

My December.

December's here.
the last month of 2007.
time has past so fast, or rather, too fast.
it has been such an eventful year, loads of ups and downs.
and there would be many more to come.
cherish the good moments, and forget the bad ones.
there's still much to do and learn before the new year arrives.
it's not just December,
it's my December.