rest day for jelly legs.

back to 'dance almost everyday' life. =)
had junchao item on sunday. very tiring, after the whole thing my legs damn tired, like jelly like that. then very hard to focus also. stretching before that was also X____X. i feel my body became super rusty after 3 weeks of no dance.
had bboy item on monday. quite fun actually, but then again, damn tiring.
seriously got alot to practise on. so must slowly work on it.
ok, today is rest day. i dont care!! spam yoko yoko & counterpain.
tired, need to sleep.


zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

no more exams in NP forever!!

IT'S OVER!!
FINALLY, THE LONG AWAITED MOMENT!
NO MORE EXAMS IN NP FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!

but that is if i pass all modules lah...
i hope i pass all lah! it sucks to come back to NP to study 1 module for 1 semester.
i am crossing my fingers.

but seriously, i am so damn happy.
because can dance alreadyyy!!! 3 weeks no dance at all, never do isolations & stretching! i feel rusty and unhealthy. and Danzation practise starts tomorrow, cant wait!!! must start practising isolations already!! and must start training my strength too. my arms look like chopsticks to me now.

now, i must fully concentrate on FYP and dance. now no more exams, more free already. can concentrate more on FYP and dance. experiments going ok so far, everything seems pretty alright. i hope everything stays alright until september ends!! then after, attachment!!! i cant wait for attachment also! and i cant wait for Danzation also!!

seems like after exams, alot of exciting things are starting to happen hur. but seriously, juggling FYP and modules with tons of assignments which got exams and tests too, is very very shiong.
YES AHHHHHHH!!!

favourite animal!

Red Fox (Vulpes vulpes)
it's now my favourite animal! i also dont know why.

i like its rusty-red color fur, quite a hot color dont you think?

i love its golden yellow eyes! and its vertical-slit pupils makes it look damn sexy.

i think foxes are very beautiful, hot & sexy animals!!!

ok, what i mean is that foxes look 10000X more beautiful than a loserish lion living in Africa.

and i dont think foxes are cunning or sly animals.
"as cunning as a fox"? if foxes are really cunning animals, arent we, human beings more cunning?
because we know what the meaning of cunning is.
but do you think foxes know what cunning is?

ANT WAR!

all it takes is just 1 can of coke & my forgetfulness...

to start a WAR WITH ANTS!!

shit!! so now my only weapon is just a long metal ruler to smack their bodies flat.
and i smack until head got headache already.

1 paper down, 2 more to go!!
then it will be BYEBYE to exams forever.
1 week of pushing, and it will be over!

JIAYOU EVERYONE TAKING EXAMS NOW!!

what's this feeling?

i dont know, i really dont.
chocolate's arent working.
they taste like nothing, tasteless.
why do these tears just keep flowing?
what's this feeling?

fussy?

my mum says i'm a fussy eater.
i agree, but to a certain extent.
i dont eat alot of things, because i'm particular about the food i eat. =)

1) food must look good!
appearance of the food must be good what. like that, wont it make your appetite better too?

2) food must definitely not have things that i hate. eg. chilli etc.
ya, it turns me off to see chilli on my food. but for example, like camps, their packet food will surely got chilli one, i will still eat the food but just wont touch the parts that got chilli. but i love chilli crab! =)

3) food mustnt smell disgusting to my nose.
one example would be durian. i just hate the smell, that's all.

4) food must be clean.
how to know whether it is clean? when you see a stall that sells food that is left in the open with flies flying around them, dont you think it's dirty enough? and also, the person selling the food must look clean too right? imagine you see the person cook halfway dig nose, what if the nose shit drop inside the food?

so after reading this 4 points, am i really that fussy when it comes to food?
you decide.

anyway, this links to what i ate for my very late lunch which was at 530pm just now. no choice la, got to have late lunch. experiments do until like 4+pm. i ate yong tau foo and it costed me $6!! basically, the main thing i like about yong tau foo is that i can choose. but i dont like the sauce that people go with it, i find it disgusting.
1 hotdog + 1 crabstick + 1 piece of cuttlefish + 1 vege + 1 mushroom + 1 fishcake wrapped with beancurd skin + 1 egg tofu + 1 taupok + 1 "dont know what's the name" + 1 fishball + 1 prawnball = $6 (with beehoon and soup)
i ordered too much, even the aunty couldnt fit the ingredients, bee hoon and soup together in one container.
i told my mum, and her reaction was like O___O.
not my fault la, i also dont know i took so much. too hungry already what, blame it on experiments la. took 4 hours of my time, end up i cant have early lunch which made me super hungry by the time i on my way home.

grow cells, grow! i am happy when you grow, so grow! =)

bloom.

the seed has grown.
but when will it bloom?
i wonder.

it is possible.

it is possible. it is possible. it is possible.
i can do it, i will do it, i must do it.
fight to the end, no matter how tired i am.
everything will be alright.



As life goes on...
I mustn't forget, Yeah.
Don't let it go...
I remember this vast land and my friends.

tired.

i've been very tired lately.
i guess i'm mentally drained.
it sucks to be like this, i'd rather be physically drained.
and things are not going the way i want them to be.
screw ups after screw ups, experiments really not much time left.
seriously cant afford anymore screw ups.
and i screwed up once again today, dropped 4 flasks of cells!! really hope those cells inside will be alright.
i really do hope things will go smoothly this time round.
close to 3 months of experiments, but very little is achieved.

i just got to endure and get through this phase of my poly life.
i need some kind of miracle.
*ends this post with a big sigh...

PHOTOS & fuck school.

PHOTOSSS!! =)

thanks summer, huiting & yvonne for the photos!

my eyes are getting smaller & smaller...

my eyebrown looks weird in this photo. =/

ANYWAY...

fuck school seriously. it's study break but i still got to go back school to do FYP. yes, fuck FYP. i feel like a slave in school. i dread going to school. but i dont mind going studio for dance. =)

but no dance, means go school and be full time slave. i know complaining wont get me anywhere, but i think it's sometimes necessary to complain. it makes me feel happier a little. i've got LSSS test tomorrow, and my lecturer says it's not gonna be easy. but the problem is, how to study for that module? by the way, LSSS is a stupid module, you got attend lectures held by externals and in the end, there is a test. and the problem is, some of the lectures totally cannot understand one. and some of the lecture notes have full of complicated graphs and diagrams. i am so screwed for the test. sucks to be life science student.

I MISS MY FREAKING HOLIDAYS!! I SO NEED A BREAK FROM SCHOOL!! I TOTALLY HATE STUDYING!! I HATE EXAMS!! I HATE FYP!! I HATE CELL COUNTING!! I HATE CELL CULTURE!! I HATE MY HYBRIDOMA CELLS!! I HATE ASSIGNMENTS!!


i am tired & i need a break. but i cant have it until october. =(

nice outing!!

2nd August NRA Family Outing!!

first of all, THANK YOU CHIN & MELISE FOR ORGANISING THIS OUTING FOR ALL OF US!!

from 3.30pm to 9pm, we played badminton & captain's ball. even though both were like simple games, but then all of us had lots of fun. and we also perspired alot too. more outings in future please!!

ok, now very sian le. because outing is over and no more dance classes until after exams!! everyday is going to be FYP and studying. totally dont like it at all. but HEY! i must endure this last phase of this semester. because once this phase is gone, NO MORE MODULES & EXAMS FOREVER!! but that is if i pass all my modules la. it's just 3 modules to study, just 3 papers to take. so I CAN DO IT!!

JIAYOU! I BELIEVE THAT GOOD THINGS ARE AHEAD OF OUR LIVES!!

looking forward to Danzation!

31st July performance!!

freshie item group photo!! =)

i really enjoyed myself the entire time! i was getting abit nervous before the actual showtime. i also dont know why, guess it's just a normal reaction. started perspiring and farting alot(opps!) when on standby. but when the music played, everything just came out naturally, all the nervousness all gone. super shiok feeling!! =)


i am really thankful to be able to perform this time. i see it as a chance for me to improve as much as i can before the actual performance. i dont know how to put my thank you into long paragraphs of words, but still i'd like to say "THANKYOU EVERYONE!!" thank you cash, shufang, baowen & david for helping to clean freshie item steps and formation!! thank you chee cheng & summer for helping me with my stubborn-cannot-stand-properly hair! thank you melise for your concealer! thank you steph tan for your foundation! thank you wangqin for helping me put blusher to make my face not so white! thank you steffi for the khon guan cracker! and thank you to alot alot alot of you all for every small things you have did!!

i had a dream last night. finally, a dream after soooooo long. but it was a sad dream. i actually dreamt about my mum not wanting me to join Danzation!! the dream is like so damn real, i could feel my tears. then after that i woke up, my face was dry. hahaha! i know this thing will never happen to me, cause it's just a dream. and i'm glad my mum has approved of me to learn dance. i can still remember when i told her i join NRA, she wasn't happy at all and could see that she didn't want me to join.

exams are coming already, no more lessons (yay!). in just about 2 weeks like that. jiayou everyone!! must study very hard and pass all modules. FAIL = NO DANCE!! after exams, let's all chiong dance and work towards Danzation!! =D
after 31st July performance & the dream, i'm really looking forward to Danzation!! let's continue to work on our flaws, improve on what we are better at, and keep going up to a higher level!!!