2007, a year of mistakes.

2007 will be history soon. an end to another chapter, and the beginning of a new chapter on a fresh new page. and when we look back, it's like studying our past and understanding ourselves. as we learn the mistakes from our past, all we can do is to not make the same mistakes in future. our history is important, it's like our treasure. without it, we would be nothing, we would be living without a purpose.
this year passed like a speeding bullet. things really went on smoothly for me for the first few months, really enjoyed that period of time. and there was FOC too, it's something that i really treasure loads, all the hard work, all the good times.
but the nightmare began when school started. year 2! firstly, i started the semester with a slacky attitude, like super slack. and in the end, struggling like mad just to pass all my modules. yup, it's my fault. i played so much that i forgot to balance both work and play. thus, having a GPA of 1.53 although i passed all modules.
secondly, i'm really unlucky. i got seperated from my classmates whom i knew during year 1, and there was no one whom i can fully rely on. especially last semester, when most of the time i walked into emart, no one was there. practicals and tutorials were like super torturing. but at least this semester is abit better.
i feel so different now. i think i am abit anti-social already, seriously. i can't interact and make new friends. i get so attached to my present friends that i forgot how to make new friends at the same time. for example, NRA. i hardly ever interact with anyone there. those whom i know are basically just "hi-bye" friends.
but i'm glad i have my friends in school who never fail to help keep that smile on my face. friends who i can count on. without them, i seriously don't know who to turn to. thanks for tolerating my nonsense and everything!
alright, i guess i'm gonna keep this post short. 2007 has been a year of mistakes for me. alot of things went wrong for me, i messed up, and i repeated the mistakes again. and by the time i realised it, i was already in big shit.
as 2008 approaches, i'm having mixed feelings. yup, i did talk about this in my previous post. i want to start afresh, start the new year with new resolutions and also those that i didn't fulfill this year. but at the same time, i'm afraid of making mistakes. it's hard to explain, but i feel that i'm not ready.
but i guess i don't have much of a choice. the new year is approaching and i got to be prepared for anything, be it good or bad. i've got to learn to make decisions. and no matter what decision i make, i must be ready for whatever consequences. i hope 2008 would be a better year.
guess i shall stop here then,
Happy New Year everyone!

Merry Christmas!

My Grown Up Christmas List - Kelly Clarkson

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree

Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth
(there'd be)

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up christmas list

This is my grown up christmas list


Merry Christmas everyone!
i love this song, there's like super loads of meaning in it.
anyway, how did i spend my christmas this year?
well, nothing much actually. managed to meet up with steph, jeremiah, denyse and nikki to watch national treasure. city of gold! imagine having that in singapore, let's say at bukit timah hill?
can't wait for the 3rd movie. something to do with pg 47...
after the movie, it was home sweet home for all of us, as it was late and most of us wanted to go home and sleep.

presents!!! this year, only got 3. but better than nothing. 1st was a t shirt my sister gave me. 2nd, perfume from nikki and it's for females! 3rd was an orange aluminium bottle from lendl. there's snoopy! thanks for the presents!!!
i've been receiving more than i've been giving this year. didn't plan for christmas, and didn't expect to receive presents either. in the end, didn't give any presents.
well, there's still next year!

a few more days till the end of 2007.
mixed feelings. somehow, i want this year to end soon. but on the other hand, i'm not really looking forward to the new year.
arghh, shall talk about it next time, which is my "end-of-year" blog entry. (wow! like so grand.)

problem fixed!

yay! problem fixed!
i said that i would wait till school reopens to fix the problem with the icon thing.
but i couldn't wait till school starts, which is like next year.
so i went to school just now to see whether my laptop has a problem or not.
and once i reached there, i explained what happened and everything to the guy. and i turned on my laptop. and i waited for the icon to show the problem, which is supposed to happen in 5 minutes.
but after 15 minutes, nothing happened!!! everything was still fine.
and so, i realised that my laptop was working perfectly fine the whole time.
the problem lies with the modem! i kinda wasted a trip to school, and returned home only to know that my modem is the one causing the problem.
i called starhub in the end. and the problem was solved. as the person on the line was giving me instructions, he analysed the problem and in the end, his solution was to use a pin/pen to press the reset button.
and it worked! thank goodness. and now everything is back to normal.

laptop screwed up!

ahhh! finally, an update. well, that's because there's nothing to blog about for the past few days.
but finally, i can blog about something.
my laptop!
it's screwed up! something's wrong with it. and it all happened today at about 4+ pm.
usually when you connect to the internet, there will be an icon at the bottom right hand corner saying that your laptop is connected right?
but here's the problem. the icon shows me that my laptop isn't connected to the internet. but in fact, i am connected to the internet. i can access it as normal, but seeing that icon which states "not connected" really makes me irritated.
initially, i thought the problem lies with the modem. but the modem is functioning perfectly.
i tried rebooting my laptop like loads of times! for the first 5 to 10 minutes, the icon will show that i am connected to the internet. but after that, it will show "not connected".
and what's more irritating is that, as i continue to chat, read stuffs, watch anime and even blog about this entry...i keep getting disconnected! eg. msn
it's really weird, and irritating! and i know nuts about fixing these sort of problems. which means i don't know what's the problem with my laptop, and i don't know how to fix the problem which is unknown to me.
i need someone professional to help me!!!
guess i won't be coming online often, all because of the stupid problem.
i shall wait until school reopens to seek professional help.

well deserved 2 weeks break?

finally, common tests have ended...with a horrible ending.
yes, i meant CCTA.
i've got nothing much to say about the paper, it's just killer.
there's a really big difference between those who actually did the calculations for their practicals and those who just copied the answers from those who did it.
and i'm not gonna pass the paper for sure. and the reason is clear.
if i could get 15/50 for the paper, i would be satisifed.
and if i get 20, it would be a miracle. so what about 25?
totally impossible!
but whatever it is, it's over. so no point talking about it already.
2 weeks of holidays, not the time for me to slack off too much. because there's work to be done.
rest is rest, and work is work. got to make use of the holidays to brush up on my MMB and CCTA. and there's not much time when the new year starts, like about 5 weeks of school, and then, final exams. it's scary.

anyway, talking about CCTA. just got the allocation results for FYP a few days back.
Establishment of mammalian cells in serum-free media & scale-up.
yup, that's the topic.
and it has really got alot to do with CCTA, from cell culturing to aseptic techniques to bioreactor!
the topic was not in our (denyse and me) top 5 choices, but it's alright. it sounds good anyway.
well, it gives me 1 more reason to brush up on my CCTA.
and denyse and me are really lucky to have a nice lecturer too. CBE lecturer, dr tan.

tilapia growth project has officially ended! finally, no more measuring of tilapias, no more feeding, no more changing of water, no more worrying whether they will die or not.
but there's still some presentation to be done about the fish project.

ah crap! i've got this sudden craving for laksa in the middle of the night!
bye!

focus!

yes, i'm supposed to be studying for tomorrow's CCTA paper.
but i'm tired, i can't focus, not really in the mood to study, and i felt the need to blog.
1 week of studying, and i'm gettting sick of it.
monday was aquaculture paper! i must say it's really easy, i'm not being over confident. but it really is easy, you can literally cut and paste the answers from the lecture notes onto the test paper. but the sad thing is that...i made 2 stupid mistakes! and it would cost me 8 marks! although easy, but i don't think i will do that well for the paper.
wednesday, immunology! the paper was alright, easier compared to last semester's common test paper. made about 2 stupid mistakes again, but those questions are 1 mark questions, so i'm not too affected by them.
MMB paper just now...was killer. the paper wasn't hard. and i just don't like the idea of having 40 MCQ questions, too many questions. but anyway, i guess the fault lies on me. didn't manage to finish studying all the chapters properly. had a really tough time trying to focus on wednesday night. so much to study and so little time, plus diarrhea (shouldn't have eaten laksa for dinner). gave up studying at about 12+am as i was too tired to continue. i know for sure that i would fail this paper, just hope that i don't do too badly. oh well, there's still another chance for me to pull my grade up, just got to concentrate a little more on MMB.
hope that tomorrow's CCTA paper wouldn't be too difficult. just 1 more day! i've got to endure!
and after that, i would be 2 weeks of holidays!

french & mugging!

finally, 2nd duration of IS lessons started on thursday.
this time round, french!
i think french is such a nice language, but it's really difficult to learn.
especially the numbers and alphabets. i was like having a bit of trouble pronouncing.
there was also oral assessment too. had abit of trouble with the words at first, but in the end, i think i did pretty alright. practised over and over again.

Je m'appelle Joel.
it means "I am Joel".

can't wait for the next lesson lah! my teacher is really nice! she actually bought cookies from carrefour and she wanted us to pronounce the name of any cookie we wanted. and of course we got to pronounce it right before she allowed us to take one.
i chose the cookie named 'togolais royal', if i've remembered it correctly.
i think it's really nice, i was like starving during the lesson actually. my stomach was growling non stop.
and after french lesson, mugging time in school! managed to go through and understand most of the lecture notes for MMB, left with 2 more lecture notes! i'm so proud of myself for being so productive!

common tests are next week!
and i've still got quite alot to study.
aquaculture, immunology, CCTA and MMB.
there's loads to study for aquaculture, about 3/4 of the entire lecture notes!!!
immunology is killer! all the antibodies, T cells, B cells, macrophages, complements and so on.
read through CCTA lecture notes, not alot to memorise, but alot to understand. got to simplify the lecture notes and turn it into MY notes.
but i'm glad i've gone through quite alot for MMB! =D
1 week of mugging!
i can do it if i want to!


bonsoir!

black christmas.

Black Christmas.

call me stupid, retarded or whatsoever.
because i think black christmas is kinda cool.
just thinking of a black christmas tree, with silver decorations and with presents wrapped in black with silver/gold ribbons tied around them.
i think it's so much better than the green tree, with loads of horrible colored decorations hung on it. and with presents that are wrapped with colorful wrapping paper. it just makes everything look so messy.
and it's also much better than white tree and presents. white's just too plain.
black. simple yet sophisticated.

My December.

December's here.
the last month of 2007.
time has past so fast, or rather, too fast.
it has been such an eventful year, loads of ups and downs.
and there would be many more to come.
cherish the good moments, and forget the bad ones.
there's still much to do and learn before the new year arrives.
it's not just December,
it's my December.

Happy 18 Birthday Steph!
hope you have enjoyed the steamboat and also your day.
anyway, a group of us celebrated steph's early birthday yesterday. and we went bugis for steamboat. this time round, at a different stall. steamboat was really great! the soup was like so nice lah! xl, jeremiah, kaihua and i were like sharing a pot, 1 side herbal soup and the other, chicken soup. my tummy was like so bloated after the steamboat dinner. i was like 2 months pregnant with food inside my tummy. while steph went for her toilet break, took the chance to take out her cake and surprise her. the cake looked so beautiful, and it's really delicious! and at about 10pm, all of us decided to go home, because there was still lessons the next day.
i seriously love steamboat! hope can have more steamboat dinners in future. (depends whether i got money or not.)

and so today was the day that steph officially turn 18. supposed to wake up at like 6am to go for MMB lecture. but because i was so tired/sleepy/lazy, i decided to miss the lecture. so i only left for school at 9am for aquaculture practical.
aquaculture practical was really fun today! because we got to disect a sea bass. dr nevil actually demonstrated the disection procedure on a tilapia which he used to sacrifice when drawing blood from it. apparently, that tilapia was too skinny to draw any blood from its caudal vein. so dr nevil decided to puncture its heart to draw blood from it. and he took out its internal organs. stomach, intestine, liver, spleen, air bladder, heart and brain. and that tilapia's heart was still beating even after he took it out from the fish, so amazing lah!
and then, it was our turn to do the disection. everyone in the class had a dead sea bass to work on. and i'm not being sadistic, but i seriously enjoy disecting the sea bass.
first it was CCTA, when we had to take out the embryo of a fertilised chicken egg, cut out the head, and mince the meat using a scissors. i remembered myself laughing while doing the entire procedure.
and now, it's the fish.
the last one would be our lab mice!!!
ok, i shall stop blogging about such things.

time has passed so quickly. this semester is like passing so fast. in 2 weeks time, common test!!! it's time to start studying. gosh! and in about 1 months time, end of 2007. and soon, it would be the end of year 2...and then, year 3! which means, IAP and FYP! and now we've got to choose what we want to do for our FYP! so many choices, but don't know which to choose.
lucky still got about 3 more days to choose.

my virgin nightlife.

i've never been home so late, like close to 5am.
it all happened after eating beancurd with SGLs and yide.
went drinking with jeremiah, mingcheng, steph + her bf, and denyse at Balcony.
it was my first time entering a bar, seriously. but it's not my first time drinking alcohol.
denyse had singapore sling, while steph and her bf each got martini.
jeremiah, mingcheng and i shared 2 jugs, 1 long island tea and 1 jack daniel's with coke.
prefer jack daniel's to long island tea.
and i realised 1 thing when i drink...my face won't go red. it's my eyes that will turn red. especially when i'm kinda tired.
and there was this couple, an ang moh and a SPG. they were like kissing and kissing, and the woman had her hand placed at that ang moh's groin. and she was like...touching his "thing" with his pants still on (like duh!). we were all like saying that they would have sex when they go home. ok, nevermind about that already.

steph and her bf went off first. and the remaining 4 of us continued talking. walked to far east, sat down and talked even more. until about 3am, i think.
decided to go home after that, but we had a hike in the end. walked around trying to help mingcheng find NR5 so that he can go home.
by the time mingcheng got up his bus, it was already 4am, around there.
denyse and i shared a cab back...and by the time i got home, it was like 4.45am.
and my mum was like sleeping in the living room, waiting for me to come home. guess she was worried about me. immediately went to bed after that...but then i thought, my mum was still outside in the living room sleeping.
i felt bad leaving my mum sleeping in the living room and so i decided to wake her up to ask her to go back to her room. see! i am so filial lah!
and my mum asked me why i was back so late...expected. but of course i didn't tell her i went drinking, think she would kill me if she found out.
so i just used the "midnight movie, missed the night rider, took the night rider to cck, then took a cab back home" excuse.

and i feel so poor again lah! received my $104 for volunteering for the clean & green event on wednesday. and now, i'm left with less than $10!!! shit! have been really spending alot...especially cab fares! got no idea how i'm gonna live through next week man.

red camp sucks.

no IS lesson today, but still headed down to school to be usher for red camp.
but before that, cabbed down to bukit panjang to pass denyse her handphone. she dropped her handphone in the cab yesterday, lucky i realised that, or else...she would be in deep trouble. went to buy pants for dance too. met denyse for like only 15 minutes then headed down to school. that's because i took less than 10 minutes to buy my pants. guess it's the way how guys shop...short and sweet.
took a bus down to school, met vanessa halfway during the journey. what a coincidence. chatted about modules throughout the journey, from aquaculture, to immuno, to ccta, to instru, to biochem.
reached school and went to see how my fishes were doing, before heading to the foyer for my red camp shift.
now here's the most fustrating part. i was like kinda hungry and needed a bite or something. apparently, there were free lunch which was pizza hut given out to the little kids, leaders and also helpers. so i approached the people in charge of giving out the food...i don't wanna mention names. and i asked them whether i can have one box which had pizza and drumlets in it. (i'm not being cheapskate or what, but it's supposed to be given out to helpers too...so why not?)
and they said, 'no'.
i went, 'why?'
and they replied, 'cause you are not helping in red camp.'
but i am what! and i told them what time shift was, which was supposed to be at 2pm. and they said that the 2pm shift no more or something.
i went back to donald to confirm the shift and stuff...cause he gotten his food earlier and i didn't understand why i don't have mine.
and i went back to them again and told them about the briefing i attended, my shift, and whom i was under. and they told me something about some workshop thing which i totally didn't understand at all, because all i did was just attend a briefing and wrote my name down in the thursday afternoon slot.
so i gave up, and just went back to where donald and jeremiah were sitting. and of course, i wasn't happy already. and the group of 'food-givers' called me back and told me to take one and they would also ask the lecturer whom i was under whether i was telling the truth or not.
like wth?! where's the fricking trust?
i was so turned off that i told them that i had already eaten my breakfast and i didn't want to take anymore.
i'm involved in the event but i'm not given food to eat. i'm not being petty or what, but it's just so insulting to give me the food and say that you will go ask the lecturer i'm under about whether i'm involved or not. they make me feel like as if i am just a cheapskate fellow who goes around getting free food. it's even more insulting when you are not trusted at all. if you want to give the food, just give it. if you don't want to give, then forget it. and...

a hungry man is an angry man!

so because of that, i had to do my shift with an empty stomach. i hope they find out that i told the truth and they would feel so bad and guilty about starving me and making me do my shift without any food. but then again, i doubt they will...
and i could finally get to eat after everything was over...KFC with alvin and jeremiah.
satisfying! hot mashed potatoes, fries, 2 pieces of chicken and 1 nice regular cup of pepsi. how refreshing!
and it's like so much better than eating the cold pizza and drumlets inside that box which those people were giving out in the afternoon.

i'm done with my ranting already!

beautiful coffee!

beautiful coffee for people who enjoy coffee and appreciate art at the same time.

woman's face.
cute bear!
reminds me of tilapias!!!
i would sure enjoy this cup of coffee at night.
love the wavy design.
aww! so sweet lah!

imagine waking up every morning, and seeing a cup of coffee on my table and with different arty designs everyday. it would definitely brighten up my day for sure!

fridays.

fridays are usually the days that most people look forward to.
but for me, it's the opposite.
1 reason, there's 2 practicals to tackle for the day.
i seriously hate CCTA practical...i don't know why, i just don't like it.
and immuno practical is getting messier and messier.
and you'll be mentally drained by the time you leave the immuno lab.

but the good thing about fridays are...after school.
ok, that depends whether there's gonna be any activities after school.
anyway, went for steamboat to celebrate jeremiah's birthday which was supposed to be yesterday, but he was having such a great time having a buffet at orchard hotel and so we didn't celebrate his brithday...
supposed to have dance too, but then, chose to go for the steamboat. =)
there was jeremiah, weisan, lendl, davin, abe, jian ming, wenxin, denyse and me. and nikki joined us for awhile, after weisan, jian ming and wenxin left.
had a wonderful steamboat dinner, ate loads of prawns, hotdogs, crabsticks, fishballs and so on.
stomach was practically bloated. and i think i ate abit too much, my stomach's still feeling like a balloon. and suddenly out of the blue, a few of us started talking about stuffs that most people won't talk about.
we left the place at about 10+pm...took a cab with denyse and lendl. and i had no money with me! yup, so denyse and lendl had to oay for the fare. journey in the cab was hilarious! denyse started singing and playing her imaginery guitar and i started to mimic her action, her strumming action was so funny. and there was many many more funny things that happened too. denyse started telling the uncle that her bf is xiaozhu. think she would enter IMH at the age of 22. ok, i'm just kidding about the last statement.
ok, my stomach needs rest...

lonely wednesday.

a super duper uber boring lonely wednesday.
went to school only for immuno lecture, no MMB & immuno tutorials.
and after immuno lecture, everyone else were having their own practicals, leaving me the only one left.
ok, at least there was nikki to accompany me and make me not so lonely.
stayed in the aquaculture lab for quite long, treating the 3 fish left in my tank with acriflavin because of their white spots, waiting for the new tilapias to arrive, catching 7 little fish and putting them into the tank.
so there's now 10 lil tilapias swimming in the tank, and i hope it stays that way, period. maybe minus 1 or 2 with white spots...
and now my tank has larvae growing too...don't worry, it's not mosquito larvae. the larvae actually grows into some kind of fly which is totally harmless. and the good thing about this is that the larvae are good source of food for the fish, although they are supposed to eat tilapia feed as their main diet.
and there's no GL training today too, that means go home early.
although it's a good thing, to be back home early, but it feels abit weird to do so nowadays.
i don't like going home late, but then again, i drag to go home early. seriously, i don't know.


life's been messed up lately.

ants attack, tilapia deaths.

the 1 thing that i really hate to see when i am doing work/playing games/using laptop, is to see ants crawling around, trying to find something sweet to grab. even if it is just 1 small little tiny puny ant, i can't stand it. the worst thing is that, when i bring food into my room eg. cake, coffee, chocolates, ants will start marching in. it's as if they have some kind of wireless network or something that can detect food from somewhere. and of course, i got to quickly finish up whatever i brought in and start killing ants. it has been like this for quite some time already. whenever i just spot an ant, i'll just take something with a flat n hard surface and whack it flat.

i hate ants!

anyway, my tilapia growth project is doing not so good. because loads of tilapias are dying! ok, everyone's fish are all dying like mad. for my group, shrimp feed, 2 died. seabass feed, 15 died. and for tilapia feed, 12 died. it's horrible lah!
just friday itself, 6 from my tank (tilapia feed) died. and on saturday, when i came back to school to feed the fish and clean tanks, another 3 died! and the last 3 that died, had their eye balls eaten up by the bigger tilapias...sick! just hope that none from my tank would die, i wanna see my tilapias grow big and fat!

my 18th birthday!

yay! i've finally turned 18 yesterday!

i'd like to thank all my friends for making my day so special!
thanks for all of the birthday greetings, be it through friendster, tag, message or face to face. thanks steph for the bape hoodie and 18 oranges and drawings on them, also thanks to those who helped draw and make the oranges look so cute!

ok, i shall name all the 18 oranges! there is birthday cake (eaten), piggy, granny, nerdy, zzz, GF 4 me, x__x, evil lab mouse, emo kia, braceface, fish head, ugly eyebrowns, underwear, feefee & fish, old granny face, horny orange (stupid jeremiah went to draw a penis), spiderman eyes, cute dancer.

still got 17 more to finish, i wonder whether i will 'lao sai'.

oh! and denyse made jelly for me too! thanks alot! i felt so touched when she said she stayed up late to do it when she told me that she go sleep.

and i must really thank group 7 GLs for giving me a present too! i didn't expect them to give me one. and i was even more shocked when i opened it. it's a whole box of chocolate liquers!!! and it's DARK chocolate! =))

and yes, thanks to all my fellow SGLs for singing birthday song for me in clubhouse too!

i also want to thank my mum for celebrating with me too! she gave me red packet, a card and also a cake. the cake looks small...but really cute & nice! i remembered last night i got to rush home after GL training, because it was late and i also needed to cut cake with my mum. and the presents were all so heavy...ok, not really lah, it's mostly the oranges.

it's coffee flavoured, and the chocolates in top were nice! dark chocolates again!

anyway, i had so much fun yesterday. felt so tired that i knocked out shortly after cutting cake and going online.

once again, thank you everyone!!!

Clean & Green!

Clean & Green 2007!
volunteered to be tour guides for this event.
ok, not really volunteer...because we are paid $6 per hour, and it's good lobang.
i remembered got one time beesim told us all the SGLs about this event, and once she said that we will be paid, so many of us (almost all) raised up our hands and wanted to join.
yes, it's for the money.

anyway, as tour guides, we were supposed to bring the singaporean 'tourists' a tour around the event ground. job scope is seriously simple, but then, the handling of the people is just mentally draining.

3rd Nov (Saturday)
managed to bring only 1 group around the event. the group had a mix of people of different age groups, from children to parents to aunties & uncles. and handling this sort of group is seriously NOT easy at all. why do i say so? it's just so god damn hard to satisfy every single one of them. the children will want to play games, parents would want to bring their children play games, aunties aren't interested in playing and are only coming for the sake of the goodie bags (typical singaporean) and for the uncles, they are just not bothered about anything. anyway, at the beginning, there was a really long drag of time, because apparently, my group actually came together with donald's group. my group arrived first, but then the other took damn long to come. and the IC of the group wanted to wait for the 2nd group to arrive before setting out, which was seriously a waste of time.
so while waiting, there was this mother in my group whom i find seriously dumb. she saw a millipede on the grass and she told her kids that it was a centipede and it was poisonous. and when that 'centipede' came closer to them, her reaction was so retarded. as if the millipede gives a damn about her and wants to bite her. and of course her kids made a hell lot of noise. and not to forget, when she saw a little bug coming towards their direction, she exclaimed to her kids, ' don't go close it, it's a cockroach. later it bite.' and again, the kids made a lot of noise. fucking retarded mum.
ok, back to the tour guide thing, as i was bringing the group for the tour, i had to try very hard to make everyone happy. when i didn't let the kids get the chance to play (because of the lack of time, because of the stupid IC), the parents came up to me saying that i should let them play. and the same mother came up to me and tell me that she want to go free on her own with her kids and play the games...and win the prize. and i kept trying to explain to her that she had to stay with the group and that there would be a chance for them to play. so fustrating! not matter how hard she tried to argue with me, i had to stay firm and she had no choice but to follow. not to forget, the aunties!!! loads of aunties didn't want to play the games, then they also rush me to faster walk through the games area as they weren't interesting. but what about the kids? and they kept telling me that they needed to use the toilets and i had to keep telling them to hold on and wait for the tour to be over then bring them to toilet.
seriously man, i was so relieved after the group boarded their bus and left. had a super long break after that, i was supposed to have another group coming. but they didn't come, so that was something good!
after the entire thing, jeremiah, abe, davin, nikki and me went to swensens for ice cream. steph joined us for ice cream too. i had my frosted chocolate malt...i think it's really not bad. but kinda too sweet and it gets abit sicky after eating for long. rahh! so fast spent $7 plus!

4th Nov (Sunday)
2nd day of the event. supposed to wake up at 6am, because reporting time was at 8am. in the end, i woke up at 645am. all thanks to my biological clock! i forgot to set my alarm and when i opened my eyes and saw the window...it was like so bright already. i literally jumped out of my bed, prepared and rushed off to bishan park.
today was much better. managed to handle 2 groups, both are aunties+uncles.
and after today, i've realised that there are 2 types of aunties, CUTE & UNCUTE!
the 1st group was uncute. denyse and i were handling 2 groups that came together. stupid IC told them that there was free milo and everyone from denyse's group went off for their free milo and never come back. and for mine, alot went toilet. and once again, dragging of time just to wait for them to come back. in the end, we had no choice but to start the tour because apparently, some of them went away and view all the exhibits. stupid move that the IC made...to tell them that got free milo. and the aunties all don't listen to instructions. i don't know why, maybe it's because they think that they shouldn't be listening to people who are younger than them. and they try to agrue with you just to get things their way. that's why i call them uncute.
the 2nd group was much better at first. they are more cute than the 1st. i was so pleased that i got a group that did listen to me...initially. until the part when i tell them to go explore around the games area only and come back 15 minutes later. some of them went to other areas...about half of them. and i had to go search for them and try to find the IC. in the end, i went back, starting to get abit worried, but luckily, a few people were there. but at least the 2nd group listen abit more and they did thank me for bringing them around.
all of us were dismissed at about 320pm, and weisan, huixian, jeremiah, nikki, abe. davin, mingcheng and me went to watch movie.
Superbad. really lame show lah. seriously, not worth spending your $8 on this show.
it's kinda funny and also very crude and sexual. but $8 is just too much to spend on this kind of movie.
had dinner with beesim, and soon, headed home.

lesson learnt from this event: you can NEVER satisfy everyone.

but anyway, it's good that the event is over. at least i can rest more and also enjoy the money that i've earned. it's not alot, but still, it's better than nothing.

stupid!

i am seriously damn pissed with my SAB lecturer.
last week, she said that she would inform us whether lesson would be on for week 3.
we took the trouble giving her our numbers.
but after 1 week, i received no calls from her at all.
and since i received no calls from her, of course i would just take it as there would be no lesson today.
i'm not assuming, it's common sense.
she said that she would call us, and not we call her.
and guess what? lesson was still on!
i came to know about it only at about 1.22pm when steph messaged me.
and of course i didn't want to waste my time and rush to school for lesson.

it's not my fault for missing SAB lesson. blame it on the lecturer.
it's like she was the one who said that she may have a meeting and will get back to us to inform us about the lesson.
but she didn't.
whatever it is, it's up to her whether she wants to mark me as present or not. because she's partly to be blamed for my absence.
i seriously want this 1st duration of IS classes to be over real soon.

i hate SAB!



...............


alright, enough of SAB.
seriously, sometimes i feel like i need to be more useful in some ways.
it's like i don't know alot of things and i usually don't do alot.
it was after wednesday that i realised the need making myself more useful.
i depend too much and i assume too much.
and i need to change, i need to learn more.

take for example, just now when i went to school and yes! skipped SAB, i needed to feed the fish. yes i did feed them, but then the thought of cleaning the tanks didn't come across my mind at all. i took it for granted.
in the end, when mark msged me in msn about the murky water, i was shocked.
he expected me to clean it, and i didn't do so. it really makes me feel like i never do my part in helping out in the project at all.
i really do want to take responsiblity and pride in what i do, but then, it seems like i always fail to meet expectations.
i just hope that i can be more of a help than a burden.
guess i should depend and assume less, at the same time, learn more.

mice & tilapia.

lab practicals are so alive this semster. because there's mice & tilapia to be taken care of.
it's so much better than operating spectrophotometer again and again, GLC, HPLC and not to forget centrifuging e.coli cells again and again.

1) immunology: lab mice! the mice are all so cute lah! my group's mouse is really damn active, i remembered trying to grab it by its tail and i placed it on my palm, then it struggled and tried to run...but in the end, it fell into the sink! but not to worry, nothing's wrong with it. and i called my group's mouse, "feefee". now to think of it, it kept shitting and peeing on my hand when i handle it, so i think the name "feefee" makes alot of sense. faeces+pee=feefee. anyway, i think lab mice are all so poor things, because blood is needed to be drawn out from them through their cheeks, and it's not just one drop...it's a small tube of it. it may seem really little to humans, but to the mice, it's alot of blood. the mice also need to be injected too. and in the end, all the mice are gonna be killed and their spleen would be taken out for experiment. it's really damn saddenning.

2) aquaculture: tilapias! today was the official start of the tilapia growth project. 3 tanks, 30 tilapias, 3 different types of feed. for the first time, i actually caught a fish (duh!), and measured its length, width and weight. the feeling was funny at first, the fish were slimy, wet and fishy, not to forget, jumpy! but i think it's damn fun measuring them. got a few fish kept jumping about, then i got so fed up measuring them until i scold them,"knn! stay still lah!" it's also really nice seeing the fish swimming around, grabbing their food. i hope not many fish die, because already got 1 fish like going to die in 1 of the tanks, and i think it is the 1 that kok soon dropped on the floor.

-______-'''

3) MMB: pretty alright! practical is really fun with dr zaman teaching us. she's really nice and hilarious. the only thing that i really dread doing is...serial dilution! that means i got to keep on pipetting and diluting e.coli+nutrient broth with water. it can really make your thumb go so tired that you wouldn't mind taking the micropipette and stab someone you really hate. ok, i was joking about the stabbing of someone with a micropipette.

4) CCTA: i really hate CCTA practicals. first, i don't understand a single thing during lectures, and practicals really emphasize alot on sterilization, contamination and blah blah blah. i remember my group panicking like mad, while steph was right beside us doing everything like a professional with all the stuffs nicely placed inside the hood. but seriously, i think the practical manual needs to be more specific, instructions are not very clear, thus causing loads of confusion.

ok, so my point is, feefee & fish kinda brighten up my practical lessons. it's so much better than operating machines.

2 more weeks?!

it's been days since i last blogged.

i've coming back real late ever since school started, like about 10,11,12 plus.

mainly because of the GLs dance practices, NRA and also GL training.

that's also why i've not been updating, because i'd be too tired to do so when i get back.

and mum's not happy with me coming back home late and money from her more often than usual.

on wednesday, i came home so late that i had no mode of transport other than taxi to get me home. and what's worst is that i had only $1 with me.

so i had to call her to help me pay the taxi fare.

felt pretty bad about it.

anyway, while walking back home with my mum, first, i dropped my phone AGAIN! this time, right in front of her. and seriously, this is the don't know how many times i dropped my new samsung phone. it has only been a month since i got it and there are already scratches on the edges. my mum was like saying how careless i was.

then just when we were about to reach the lift, abe called me. and she told me that i forgot to bring home my laptop!!!

i went, "OH SHIT!"

of all things, i forgot to bring home my laptop! lucky abe found out and helped me bring home, phew. thanks again, abe!!! =)

and i told my mum about the laptop thing, and she said, "if you can forget to bring home your laptop, i'd rather you forget to bring yourself home."

that's double the carelessness. i was complaining to my mum that my desk was so empty that night...LOL!

thursday, SAB class again. lesson was kinda boring again but good thing that there was this short little presentation to make our brains think and talk. other than that, it was all about the lecturer going through her slides.

so after SAB class, nikki, wenxin, eddy and me went town. jeremiah, the loser tagged along too, after heading all the way back to tampines.

and my main reason for going town: to NOT go home so early & window shop abit.

now it feels really awkward going home early.

and anyway, it has been quite some time since i last went town to walk around.

so we walked from shop to shop, lookng at stuffs like clothes, caps, jackets, etc. while wenxin was finding a present for jianming.

after everything, wenxin headed home and the rest of us went to coffee bean to have a drink. it was then that i realised how much i spent for the entire day, JUST ON FOOD.

lunch: $3

dinner: $4

ice blended belgium choc: $5.80

1 can of 'Anything': $1

total: $13.80!!!

rahhh!!! i really hate this. i guess it's time to really save abit more.

let's forget about everything i've just blogged about.

ANYWAY...the sudden thought of how fast time flew came across my mind.

and i was and still am quite shocked to see that time has flew so fast that 2007 is ending soon.

why do i say so?

just 2 months ago, i thought of 7 Nov and i thought to myself, "it's still 2 months away."

BUT NOW, the date 7 Nov is in 2 weeks time. 2 WEEKS!

and i'll really throw a big pot of curry on your face on you still don't know what 7 Nov means...

yes, it's my birthday. (reminder)

and yes, it would be the day that i can officially buy alcoholic drinks, 4D, TOTO, buying movie tickets rated M18 (although i've entered M18 theatres before).

it also means i can go clubbing...but i'm not into clubbing. so i don't give a heck about that.

anyway, i saw this 1 thing that i came across in the internet.

BAPE hoodie!!! and it's orange, and i think it's so nice lah!

here's the link:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/thesforce/sets/72157602528987379/

i like the blue, grey and red ones too!

er herm, you know what i want for my birthday present now, don't you?

oscar turns 3, botanic gardens event & horrible reveal.

Happy Birthday to Oscar!!!
he turned 3 yesterday.
sadly, i can't celebrate his birthday...because of the botanic gardens event.
by the time we reached back to amk mrt station, i couldn't make it back on time for his celebration.
anyway, i heard from my sister that he got a nice huge heart shaped cake. actually his cakes need not have any shapes, because he doesn't bother about it. he just loves cakes.

about the botanic gardens event. it was kinda cool.
i felt that i didn't interact much with the kids.
not that i don't want to, i don't know how...
the kids were not what we expected them to be, they were actually quite alright. just that they were more playful and rough when playing.
using apples as a ball to throw, kick and catch. it's actually a really smart idea. the only thing i was afraid of was that the apple may land on someone else's head.
i wouldn't call them vulgar, because for the entire afternoon, i only heard words like 'bastard' and 'bitch'.
'but aren't those still counted as vulgarities?', you may ask.
but come on, kids these days scold hell lot of vulgarities behind their parents' backs. 'bastard' and 'bitch' are just at level 1. even students from the best classes do scold vulgarities too.
and controlling them was a challenge. even asking them to sit in a circle, took us like about 10 minutes. but can't blame them for being like that, i mean...why should they listen to us? they don't know us at all.
but overall, i seriously think that they are nice kids.

anyway, after the event, went for dinner.
i had my pork chop hor fun. quite alright, the gravy alot, i like. but the hor fun itself needs more flavour.
went AMKhub walk walk. and yes! something horrible happened! all of us went to take photo and reveal our looks when we turn 60. and mine looked seriously horribly gross!!!
i'm not gonna post it up or something, because i got to take it out from my bag, scan it, and look at it on my laptop. it's so gross and scary!!!
i look like a zombie or something.
and everyone knows the revealing of your future is not real. it's really exaggerating lah. they make you look as if you would look damn ugly when you grow old.
when i grow old, i want to look really cute. you know those kind of cute old man, not cheeky, CUTE!

worst IS module ever!

Starting A Business (SAB).

this IS module sucks to the core!
it's even worse than IAC with a banshee teacher ( i don't want to mention her name, because i've heard that IS teachers love to search for blogs by just typing their names in some search engine, and...walah! a new blog found with all the horrid things about him/her being blogged about.)
and there are only 7 students in SAB class...and ALL are from LSCT.
i was expecting a mix of students from other faculty.
and the number is somewhat pathetic, only 7. but it's kinda good, presentations would be short and sweet. imagine having like 5 groups to present whatever slides they have and all of their slides are long and draggy. that would take up like, close to 3 hours.

anyway, me and steph and a few others were like kinda worried that we entered a wrong class. the classroom was totally empty with people when we entered. and finally at about 1.05pm, the teacher entered the classroom, and wasted like 10 mins smsing someone and making that 'tsk' sound. it's like really irritating for a student to actually come to class early and in the end have to wait for the teacher to arrive late and wasting even more time by smsing someone.

i seriously got no interest in starting a business at all.
really, not in my life.
1) the passion is not there.
2) i'm not much of a risk taker.
3) the higher you climb, the harder you fall.
4) i just want a stable, ordinary job in a company in future, with a salary about $3000.

ok, what i'm really trying to say is that...business, is not my type.

anyway, after the dumb class...we had to go for a stupid talk by Cheers. which was totally dumb and stupid and a waste of time.
but the class of 7 agreed to attend the talk, all because of week 4! because if we attended the talk yesterday, week 4 would be a free day.
me and steph sat inside for like 1 hour 20 mins...and then left the talk as the speaker was really killing us.
i think the speaker should go for com toolkit which was one of the IS modules taken on the 1st semester. it's like so obvious that he wasn't familiar with his slides, he had to keep referring back to them and read the words out. eye contact seriously sucked.

5 more weeks and SAB would be OVER! or make it 4 more weeks instead...
i want SAB to be over really soon.

oscar's back and school begins.

great news! Oscar's finally back on monday.
it's great to see him back at home.
he was like so happy to be home. i remembered when i entered my house, straight away i heard his barks...downstairs! then i knew he was finally coming back, so i left the door open.
he entered the house and started running about and barking to show that he's happy to be back home.
not having him at home may be kind of a saddening thing for me.
but to him, it's a stressful thing, because for that entire weekend, he had to adapt to the vet's environment right on the spot.
right now, he got lots of pills to eat. orange, pink, red and white.
he hates eating pills and if you try to force him to eat by opening his mouth and putting the pill in, he may SNAP your finger.
so my mum came up with a brilliant idea which would trick him. stuffing the pills inside watermelon chunks! we tried it, and it worked.
anyway, right now...his skin condition is getting better. and i hope it improves alot more.

anyway, a new semester has begun. level 2.1.
so far so good i guess.
aquaculture & immunology are so interesting! so looking forward to future practicals because we're gonna deal with both fish and mice.
MMB is not bad, but dr new's teaching is so hypnotic...it almost put me to sleep during the 2nd half of his lecture.
CCTA is alright, but i'm still kinda blur about some stuffs.
eg. what are cell lines?
guess i've got to read up more...
bioinfomatics is such a boring and dry module, i totally didn't understand what rekha was teaching on the 1st lecture.
so far, all the lecturers i've met are nice and friendly.

went for this charity training that was held yesterday by this organisation called CARE.
it's to help youths that are at risk...
this saturday, there's gonna be this event where we will try to help students( mostly from Normal Technical stream ) that not only academically weak, but also at risk, eg. drugs, gangs, smoking, depression, behaviour problem, basically matters that would really affect the youth and that most youths in singapore are so lucky to not experience such things.
the trainer has 'trained' those who were at the lecture hall about what is expected from us and also how we should act if problems arise.
i hope this saturday, i would be ready and like kinda make the student that i'm gonna be paired up with, be inspired to succeed in life, and prove to others that he/she is really something not to be looked down at.
but on the other hand, i'm kinda scared.
the best thing to do, is to be myself on that day.
i really learnt quite alot from that training. every youth will be at risk at some point in their lives. and it's how they cope with it, but at the same time, it's up to the parents, school, even the public/community to help them in any ways they can.
and i missed dance practise because of the training. i must really stop missing dance practise, it's gonna be bad for me.
and it's really high time to train my fundamentals. there are still stuffs that i can't do properly while my other friends can. i must really practise and do it well! what xl told me today was so correct, "you can't avoid the things that you hate to do, you just got to face it and do it."
something like that.

i want to make it workkk...

kaihua is GODLY!!!

Dua Dua Long John / Dua Dua Lan Jiao.

in short,


DDLJ!

actually, it's just 4 guys...

donald, davin, lendl, joel.



what we do: it's all about the entertainment.
how: being sexy, doing sexy moves.
why: just for the fun out of it, entertainment.




other than that, it's just 4 guys who have dua dua lan jiaos.


hehehe...



oh ya, so we asked kaihua to draw DDLJ because he can really draw damn well.

and when i received the picture from him, i was amazed!

it's GODLY!!! really.











this is a photograph of us at kota tinggi.

this is the drawing...NICE RIGHT?!

the great thing about his drawing is that, the whole thing looks so damn real!

plus, the DDLJ looks like some kind of chinese character. i feel so chinese =D

not to forget, how he drew me in this drawing, i am so happy!!!

my teeth!!! he drew them really straight!!!

and my eyes, so SEXY!!!

really touching can...

1000 thank yous to law kaihua!!!

his drawing skills are so damn good.

i can only draw little doodles either on paper/computer...

hahaha. yes, i drew this 2D piece of lizard with an optical mouse.

it's not easy controlling the mouse when drawing on computer k.

everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses.

that's what make us so unique!

anyway, school's starting tomorrow. i kinda look forward to it, but then again, i'm also not looking forward to it.

what the hell am i talking man?

think most of ya should be able to understand this contradicting feeling. i hope.

2 modules that i'm looking forward to, immunology & aquaculture. not sure about MMB and CCTA, but i don't like the sound of bioinfomatics...

whatever the case, i must strive hard this semester! oh ya, my dear friends, please whack/slam/clobber/chop/crack my head real hard if you see me really slacking or getting really bad grades.

anyway, Oscar's coming home tomorrow! actually it's supposed to be today but then the vet is closed on sundays. heard from my sister that he's kinda depressed...but at least it's good news to hear that he's alright. now i can worry less.....phew.

a whole weekend without Oscar at home sure is quiet and weird.

missing Oscar, timetable rant and school.

Oscar has been boarded at the vet for treatment.
2 nights already.
i don't know why, but i'm getting worried.
not because that i don't have faith in the vet...
but i don't know why.
i just feel worried.
it sure feels different without him at home for the past 2 days.
it's so quiet...
i hope he comes back real soon.

anyway, school starts in 2 days time.
i've went through my timetable.
and i really hate it.
let's see...

monday: long hours in school, filled with loads of lectures and a practical.

tuesday: i just don't like the idea of having a lecture at 8am in the morning at LT59? (where's LT59?)

wednesday: i seriously hate this day...especially during odd weeks. i've got a freaking tutorial at 9am, and then 3 hours of break before another lecture. tell me, what am i supposed to do during that 3 hours?

thursday: IS day, nothing much to say.

friday: 2 practicals and 1 lecture...can die man.

my timetable is packed. rahhhh!
hope i can survive every single week.
this semester would be a killer, but then i still got to work extra extra hard.
i need to pull up my GPA badly.
my average GPA right now is like 2?
really pathetic.
so that explains why i really need to do well this coming semester.
time management really plays a huge role, that was what i really lacked last semester.
and not to forget the self motivation and etc.

signed off.

edited at 1pm*

ok, now i know where LT59 is.

a week after.

1 week past so quickly.
last thursday was staying over night at school because of kota tinggi trip.
seriously, time passes so fast.
and i miss kota tinggi...
i miss mt panti...
i miss the sky at night, filled with loads of stars...
i miss that peaceful feeling i get when i'm over there...

the last week of the long holidays.
next week would be the start of a new semester.
last few days of relaxation.
should start preparing myself for a upcoming hectic semester.
wouldn't want to be like last semester, started unprepared and slacky, in the end struggling like mad.

anyway, yesterday was group 4 games.
felicia and i are so proud of group 4.
they did a really good job, despite their numbers.
5 GLs running their own group games isn't easy at all.
well done!
and lucky yesterday never rain...just a little drizzle.
if not i would be damn sad, cause last year my group 5 games rain like crazy, in the end only got 45 mins to run the games.
at least now i can say phew.
no need to feel so worried, and make felicia worried and in the end, start a chain of worry.

....

ok, i don't know what i am typing.

wabisuke.

i didn't know i've hurt so many.
i really didn't mean it at all.
i didn't know that my actions could do so much damage.
but at least, now i know what i did was wrong.
i'll change.

wabisuke.
侘助


yea, i'm back from camp.
going back to kota tinggi the 2nd time sure brings back memories.
i miss montuwed.
guacamole was a different experience.
aphrodite was the most unique group i had.
i love aphrodite!!

the trek up to mt panti was alright.
but different.
the 1st trek up, which was last year was a great achievement for me.
but the 2nd time was just...different loh.
and no leeches came up to me and feast on my blood...the 2nd time!
the power of leg hair.

it was great to see the GLs in aphrodite getting bonded.
getting themselves involved in discussions, working together, supporting one another.
aphrodite shocked me during campfire night.
i knew that they were not ready to perform, but during their performance, they did the best they could do and had fun.
big round of applause!

all in all, i'm really proud of aphrodite!!!

days before camp.

it's been a few days since i last blogged.
so just before camp starts, which is tomorrow, i shall just blog.
=)

anyway, remember the time i said the lady from Mark's & Spencer never call me?
after 2 weeks...SHE FINALLY CALLED ME!
yup, about my shifts...
and she offered me friday and saturday.
but then i didn't want it, i wanted weekends...saturday and sunday.
so too bad loh, but anyway, now i don't feel like even working.
holidays are ending, school is starting, the lady made me wait for so long.
the feeling, the eagerness to start work is no longer there...

ok, camp is tomorrow.
and i am so excited.
back to kota tinggi!!!
and my knees hurt now...

i really am a pig.

i've been really lazy these few days.
and i do is just eat, sleep and slack.
and what's worst is that, i can sleep for like the whole day!
ok, not really, but i remembered on friday...
i slept at 1+am...woke up at 1pm, went back to sleep at 2pm and woke up at 4pm.
and then i went back to sleep at 11+pm.
what a pig!
and i'm so lazy, i don't feel like doing anything.
but if i really do have to go out, i would be glad to...
other than that, it's home and sleep and food and fats.
goddamnit!
i'm too free.
and that makes me lazy...

oh, happy childrens' day...
-_______-'''

zoo + mid autumn fest! part 2

time to update part 2 of what happened on tuesday.

i'm damn lazy to update, i don't know why.

but still, i will continue.

oh ya, so after the long zoo visit, huixian, serene, nikki, abe, davin and me headed to somewhere...

AMKhub.

actually wanted to go town, but then in the end, still AMKhub.

wanted to catch a movie...Underdog.

but then the show was kinda late...close to 9pm. so we decided to watch it another day.

in the end, we entered the arcade...and took neoprints.

went to eat nasi bryani ( is that the correct spelling?) and it was like my first time eating it. can't blame me lah, i'm really picky with my food. but the nasi byrani was really nice!!!

we also did talk alot too. and steph & her bf soon arrived and then went off for their dinner shortly. and then came to find us at ntuc again.

went to ntuc to buy lanterns, and candles. also went to buy donut too...and jessica is so zzz. what ultimate best friend man??? haha, just want me to buy donut only...

went to find a place to play lantern and burn stuffs...celebrate mid autumn festival ma.

and after a looonnnnggg walk, went to the park and started playing with lanterns. and we used branches we found around the park as sticks to hold our lanterns. cool idea lehhh...budget somemore. who needs to buy chopsticks or satay sticks and spend money.

i was like spending my time burning a stick and see it glow red. while steph, serene and huixian made LSCT SGL out of candles. abe and davin went for their love bird walk...and nikki was just stoning.

in the end, we all started burning loads of stuffs...and then extinguish the fire in the end.

and headed home. i was so lost lah...amk is a place where i totally not sure of. had to take bus 76 all the way to yio chu kang mrt then take train back home. i was kinda worried that i would get lost or something lah.

so that's about it lah...

and i really am such a pig. i slept for like 11 hours...woke at 1pm. and returned to sleep at 2pm...all the way till 4pm.
what a pig!

zoo + mid autumn fest update!

time for zoo update! PART 1!!!

really had fun at the zoo with my fellow SGLs+steph's bf, eugene.

had to meet up with a few of us at cck mrt station.

finally, a meet up at CCK!

but then, i was still kinda late.

meeting time was at 9am, but then i woke up at 830am.

which means i only had about 5 mins to bathe, 10 mins to dry my hair plus brush my teeth and also get ready, and 15 minutes to walk from my house to yew tee mrt and take train.

took 927 straight to mandai zoozoozoo to meet up with the rest.

so long never go visit zoo, and it changed alot!

i mean the entrance, i remember last time the entrance was kinda simple, with a few parrots displayed there.

but now, it's totally different. look nicer too.

and we had wonderful photographers, weisan, joan and denyse.

had so much fun roaring at the tigers and lions.

taking photos with the animals.

and finally i got to see the baboons.

walking under the sun can be so tiring.

that explains why the animals look so dead and lazy.

i think even animals don't find it a joy to entertain people in singapore, because of the stupid weather.

all of us walked until the polar bears' area, and then we took a rest.

it's really tiring lah, and the polar bears were like not active at all.

and we feasted on huixian's jelly. it was GREAT!

a great hit! and the jelly was just the thing i needed, because i tightened my braces and it hurt alot.

and we continued our walk, all the way to children's world to have lunch. KFC!

OMG!!! i had a hard time eating man...even biting a piece of fries is tough.

had loads of fun playing and cam whoring at the nearest playground. relive childhood times.

after that was more walking and walking and walking.

watched 2 shows too, Splash safari and the asian elephant thingy shows.

aiya, i'm so gonna fast forward. it's getting really draggy here.

left the zoo...and had Ben & Jerry's!!! =D

and then huixian, serene, nikki, abe, davin and me headed somewhere else...................

which i'm gonna continue in PART 2!!!

stay tune lahhh...

i'm crying deep inside.

it's gonna be 3am.
and i'm still awake.
i just can't sleep.
and i kinda hate it.
well, think it's partly got to do with the late afternoon nap i had earlier on.
i feel so restless now.
so many thoughts inside my mind right now.
some that make me smile, some that make me frown, some that make me cry.
and there's still some that make me unsure of, worry, etc.
plus there's music, i'm not sure why, but i feel that music makes me ponder better.
it depends on what kind of music you listen to.
one minute you may be listening to some really jumpy song.
but the next minute you may be listening to a really sad song.
the change of mood between the 2 songs can easily affect your mood and thoughts.

time has been passing by pretty quickly for me.
holidays are getting really boring.
not much activities these days, plus the weather's hot.
but it's great to see that it's the last week of september.
about 3 weeks of holidays left, and a new semester begins.
i believe these 3 weeks would be abit more packed with activities.
and i've got to enjoy the 3 weeks as much as i can.

ps: i really can't sleep and so, i'm trying my best to kill time and make myself fee abit more sleepy.

anyway, i'd be visiting the dentist again later.
1 month already?
and i'm kind of dreading to go.
the tightening of my braces, the pain i've got to bear, and who knows what the dentist's gonna add/install in my braces?
but then, i'm kinda used to the pain and discomfort i would get after each visit.

and i can't wait to go to the zoo on tuesday!!!
"it's only the zoo what, what's so exciting about it?", you may ask.
i think the zoo's no longer appealling to quite alot of teenagers.
zouk would be more of a place to go than the zoo.
but it's been ages since i last went.
it's really really long.
i remember the last time i went to the zoo, they were building the place where they will throw the baboons in and let the public see their red butts.
can't wait!!!
and plus there's dance too!
i guess tuesday would be a really tiring day.
imagine staying in the zoo, walking around, seeing animals, then after that go to school for dance.

i guess i shall end it here then.
i'll update soon! yup, about the zoo visit!

thanks bitch.

thanks bitch for biting me.

i look like some power ranger.

and you made my childhood fantasy come true.

now i can go fight evil.

where's my call?

remember the job interview i went to last friday?
after so many days, i still received no calls from anyone regarding my job.
i guess that means, i didn't get the job.
that woman who interviewed me seriously say until i got the job like that.
but in the end, no calls from her at all.
arh, whatever lah.
no job also good, can concentrate on my studies more, plus dance, plus GLs.

and i'm seriously turning into a pig.
slept for really long, 9 hours.
went out for my group 4 meeting.
went home in the afternoon and had noodles for lunch.
guess what i did right after i finished my meal?

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

for 3 hours.
unhealthy lifestyle.
but can't help it, was feeling really lethargic.
especially after yesterday's training plus the hot sun.

yes, i remembered myself saying that i wanted september to come quick.
but right now, i want it to end already.
my life's getting really boring.
goddamnit!

prank calls, mad jack, tired from training.

just yesterday, i got prank-called by some woman from ERA, and she asked me whether i wanted to sell my property.
like...huh?
sell my property? i don't own my house, my mother does, so why ask me?
so it smelled kinda fishy, and i just replied 'no'.

the woman called the 2nd time, and then i knew it was a prank call.
and guess who was the lady?

WEISAN!!!

and i thought it was felicia.
funny lah! i kinda got prank called...
i remembered the last time i prank called someone whom i don't know.
just anyhow press number, and out of my mischief, i scolded 'KNNCCBFU'.
like so naughty can, but then i was a little kid.
then the person called back my house, but i thought my house number was a private number.
so the person was like damn angry. who wouldn't?
i lied to him, saying that person was my friend and 'he' just left my house and i didn't know 'he' prank called him.
but the person still very angry, then say want to speak to him.
but then i told him said my friend left. but he still insisted to scold him.
and so i cried.
-_____-'''
and i told my mum when she got home that this guy keep disturbing me over the phone.
then my mum called him and scolded him to stop calling back or else she would call the police.
the person never called back.
hehehehehe...yes, call me evil, call me spoilt, call me an asshole.

anyway, weisan called for dinner the next day at Mad Jack!
like, hooray! Mad Jack!

and so today, after GL training, was Mad Jack for dinner.
as usual, fish & chips.
but the next time i go there and eat, i should eat their chicken chop.
i love it!

feeling so tired.
woke up early, no breakfast, no lunch, only watermelon juice, campus run, never drink enough water, help abit in group 1's station game, the scorching sun.
almost white out. felt like dying...
i'm so tired, i can dream of eating a cow.

the good, the bad & the things in between.

i think it's damn embarrassing to walk up the bus, miss your step and headbutt a guy's butt infront of you.
to make it worst, the bus got quite a number of passengers who saw it.
and it happened to me yesterday, after a pool session with donald, alvin and nadjmi.
think the guy was shocked when he felt his butt got headbutted by my head.
it was an accident...PURE accident.
lucky it was a guy, not a girl.
if the person was a girl, i think i would have got slapped on the face man.
or who knows, kana sued...
embarrassing journey back home.


head headbutt butt...LOL!


anyway, today's the results day.
the day i was so not looking forward to.
but still, no matter how much i don't want it to come, it still has to.
abe gave me an early morning wake up call, just a few minutes after 9am.
and so, i checked my results...
and i passed all modules! heng ar...


biochem: C
MOBIO: D+
instru: D+
biostats: D
GPA: 1.53

amazingly, i got a C for biochem. a relief to see D+ for both MOBIO and instru, i thought i would fail both. but the shocking thing was that, i got a D for biostats. how come?
and my GPA totally sucks balls man. but i kinda expected it to be that lousy.
imagine slacking the semester, failing your entire common tests, and in the end, studied really hard for the exams because you feared to repeat any modules.
i've learnt my lesson, i really got to work extra hard next semester and pull my GPA higher.


went for a haircut too.
went back to the same hair salon, but then the lady who cut my hair twice wasn't there.
so i let this guy cut it.
i told him i wanted my hair to be layered, shorter. but at the same time, behind leave it abit longer.
he did leave my hair behind a lil longer...
but then, he didn't focus much on the other areas.
the top, fringe, sideburns.
my hair practically looked the same before i let him cut.
so i had to ask him to cut my fringe and sideburns to make it look better.
yes, and it looked so much neater with the sideburns and fringe trimmed.
but then i still feel my hair look damn weird, it looks like a mushroom.
ok, whatever.
nevermind about the hair, it can grow back.


and i went for my job interview. Marks & Spencer at Centrepoint.
scary lahhh...because when i reached there, got quite a number of people also there for interview.
so i took time to fill up the form and gave it to the interviewer.
by then, there were only a few people left.
then there was this lady who was also going for the interview, she looked really fierce because of her glasses. but she was really nice, she offered me a seat and she said it would take quite awhile before i was called in. so nice.
but then, i was called in 5 minutes later.
the interviewer was nice too, asked me more about myself and whether i can juggle both work and studies at the same time when the new semester started.
i think i can do it, everyone has 24 hours, it's how we spend it to the max.
she told me that she will get back to me about my working days and shifts.
i hope she calls me soon, can't wait to start work.
although it's gonna be my 1st time juggling work, studies, dance and GL trainings.
but then, i wanna start work, and experience and learn new things.
so...hooray!


finally, after 2 weeks, i went for dance.
missed out alot during that 2 weeks...2 lessons in fact.
i was really afraid that Ann would continue with that choreo, and i wouldn't be able to catch up.
but luckily, she taught us a new choreo.
and i found it manageable. =D
so long never dance, lost alot of stamina.
i was like kinda panting during the lesson.
warm up was rahhh! and isolations were like rustier than before.
time to practise!

i love mum loads!

you can't judge a leader by his/her height.

amusing meh?

it's true loh.

i've got no idea why xl found it amusing leh, i was serious.

haha.

anyway, i am so freaking happy now!

because my mum got me a new handphone!!!

it's a Samsung SGH-L760 Sapphire Blue.

i was like shocked to see a new phone right infront of my face.

then i asked my mum, "why never get me a PSP instead?"

and of course she said it's expensive lah.

but i'm appreciate what she got for me, it's like a really super early birthday present from her.

and now, i'm seriously loving this new phone.

it's cool, sleek, stylish to me.

so let's say goodbye to the 21 months old Samsung SGH-E730.

now i've got more memory in my phone, power of SD card.

thanks mum!

and not to forget, my mum like somehow helped me find a job.

yup, she knew that i've been trying to find one for the past 2 weeks.

so she decided to help a little.

and she found me quite a nice one, just got to go for a walk-in interview this friday afternoon.

hope i can get the job, so that i can earn money to get the stuffs i want.

double thanks mum!

love dance, love NRA, but i don't seem to belong.

finally, i went for Suntec Dance Competition Finals.
because i missed all 3 heats.
got to see really great dancers on stage.
there was this soloist from KL who did popping, his outfit was really shiny like aluminium.
and he was damn dope! plus the cool shades...GODLY man!
and he won the open category for soloists. KL!

for open group category, NRA really owned the top 3 places.
congrats to in bass, 8steps and rough addicts!
poshbites and F-Beatx! were also damn good too!
why must have only top 3 and not top 5?

feel really proud to be part of NRA.
at the same time, feel motivated to work hard in dance.
getting to dance on stage is like the GOAL for me in dance now.
and i've been missing dance lessons for the past 2 weeks.

anyway, after the whole thing ended, beesim and i had nowhere to go.
and don't know why, both of us were kinda sad.
i think the rest of the freshies went to eat or something.
but the 2 of us decided to head home.
not that we don't want to socialise with them, but it's hard to.
never really interact with the rest of them at all.
kinda feel left out, or is it we made ourselves feel left out?
and the exams results are going to be out soon, and i'm not even sure whether i would pass.
because fail 1 module = dismissed from NRA
whatever it is, shan't think too much i guess.
dance with fingers crossed.

and i've been really taking things for granted.
really neglected man's best friend.
yes, i'm talking about Oscar.
and now he's in a really messy state.
i am feeling so damn guilty about it.
i've been relying on my sister to bring him for grooming and also to vet, because she knows so much more about dogs than i do, plus she's the most free person.
but after so long, nothing done at all.
and it makes me boil whenever she agrees to do so, and in the end, not done.
his fur is long, ear is so dirty and stinky, skin problem getting worse.
it just seems like she no longer cares for him.
i know i shouldn't be pushing all the blame, because i'm responsible for this to happen too.
that's why i'm feeling so guilty.
i remembered reminding her to bring Oscar for grooming last saturday.
and she said she will on sunday or monday.
but in the end, 1 week has past, same state.
and i've asked her to do so for like so many times already.
just yesterday, i asked her to send him to the vet to treat his skin problem.
she still can say next week, until her pay comes because it's going to cost her a bomb.
seriously, i wanted to vomit blood at that moment.
no money can ask from mother and return her later.
why would it cost a bomb? reason being, because never bring him earlier and just let the condition worsen.
skin condition already very bad, still can delay somemore.
delay like so long already, how long more you wanna delay?
she promised monday/tuesday.
and i am having doubts.
i don't want to see Oscar in that state, when his mum wanted to buy him at first and in the end, don't want to bother about him.
even my mum though of letting someone better adopt him, but i refused to let him go.
it's the bond between both of us.
it really hurts to see your BESTest best friend to be neglected.
one more chance. make it the last.
if nothing changes, i'll have to take action before it gets any worse.

seriously, this issue is also making me have doubts about my sister getting me a PSP.
empty promises.
it's just like capsules you take in when you're ill, but there's nothing filled inside the shell.
in the end, condition still the same.
i'm not blaming her.
i'm just disappointed.
and i don't want to wait for nothing.
guess PSP is not the most important thing at all...but i still yearn for it.

anyway, i should put such issues aside.
chalet! time to enjoy, then do what needs to be done.

praying, hoping, wishing, for my PSP to come tml!

i think i should just give up finding a job.
and perhaps just go with the idea of tuition-ing some kid.
2 weeks, found some quite appealing jobs.
sent resume but no response from them.
i guess i am too picky.
it's not about the pay that i am picky.
it's the working hours plus the job scope.

oh well, i got my own commitments too.

and i think the toaster is one of the best inventions that i've come across in my life.
but there are still many many great inventions, like tv, PSP, etc.
the toaster is small, hot, and useful.
frozen food, like pizza, chicken poppers, onion rings can be put inside the toaster, heated up.
until crispy, golden brown.
and you don't need oil, frying pan and gas.
no deep-frying needed.
but sadly, it doesn't work for fries...and i don't know why.

anyway, don't mind the little crapping from me.
it's to kinda make up for the last 2 short entries that i posted.
ok, whatever.

ahhh! i can't wait for chalet to come!
goodbye.

repair.

my biological clock is broken.

and this is bad.

very bad.

life is complicated.

i am unhappy.
not emo. not depressed.
just unhappy.

how i wished life would be like the past.
when it's all about yakult, 60cents and free toy during primary school.

whatever, seriously.

no job, no money, nothing to buy.

finally september is here.
i woke up at like 825am and prepared to go for technique class today.
but then, when i was about to leave for school, i kept thinking whether class was still on or not.
so, i went online and checked the blog for any latest announcements.
and to my surprise, class was cancelled.
LUCKY ARHHH!!! lucky i read the blog lo, if not i would have wasted a 45min trip to school and another 45min back home.
and i went back to sleep until about 12+pm.

so since i was so free the whole day, i decided to go to COMEX with jeremiah and kaihua.
the whole place very crowded lah.
jeremiah and i walked at level 6 first.
level 6 is the place where all the unknown companies are at.
and we spotted steph!
ah lian selling mp4, "buy 1 get 1 free."

so kaihua arrived kinda late and we walked level 4.
level 4 is just the opposite of level 6.
so many AGLs working there lahhh!
walk and walk and walk and walk.
damn tiring.
bought nothing at all also, because no money and also nothing to buy.
headed to macs for dinner, and then home sweet home.

alright, i'm tired. byebye.

random things to blog.

1) i've got a super duper blocked nose.

2) i hate the weather.

3) i'm stuck at home the whole day, with nothing to do.

4) i've been trying to find jobs that are appealing to me.

5) i hate it when i can't make up my mind.

6) i feel like a 'hollow' everytime i go back to the dentist to tighten my braces.

7) i'm so happy that my teeth moved so much.

8) i'm waiting for the day to finally get my hands on a PSP and call it mine.

9) i'm getting lazier day by day.

10) i need a hair cut.

11) i'm craving for hotcakes in the mornings.

12) i'm glad that september is arriving real soon.

13) i seriously need to kill time.

14) i am still having post-exam syndromes.

15) i am so not enjoying my holidays.



alright, all these explains how i am currently living through the holidays, for now.

blood brothers.

watched Blood Brothers with abe, davin, nikki, augustine, kai hua and jeremiah yesterday.
to me, the movie was not bad.
i feel that the movie has meaning in it.
i'll give it 3.5/5.
it talks about how the bond between 3 brothers (2 of them are blood related, while the 3rd is like their own 'brother') got broken so easily, all because of 'paradise'.
in the end, their idea of 'paradise' didn't turn out what they wanted it to be.
also shows how corrupted shanghai was in the past, with all the killing going on.

is blood really thicker than water?

post-exams syndromes.

the problem with exams is that you got to study like mad and sit for papers which can really kill your brain cells.

but now there is a problem with the aftermath of exams.

you are left with nothing to do at home, except for playing games, watching tv, munching on food, taking loads of naps.

so, i've kinda made up my mind to go find a job this holiday.

i seriously need $$$. it's pathetic to have only $50 and a few cents in your wallet right now.

but i've been thinking, what kind of job i want?

to be honest, i seriously don't like doing sales and stuff.

you got to see other peoples' face and you got to give that damn friendly smile to them, even though they may be like the biggest assholes you have ever seen.

this is something i inherited from my mum. =D

i thought of giving tuition to lil pri school kids (P4-6).

WOW! i seriously can't imagine myself giving tuition to kids.

and i bet most of you can't imagine too.

i think after each lesson, there will be drawings on every page of the textbooks touched.

you should have seen my sec school textbooks. that's level 10.

and i must say the drawings in lecture notes that i have in poly are not even at level 3.

i've restrained myself from doodling too much.

anyway, i just need some double confirmation before i go give tuition to kids.

but at the mean time, shall just be on a lookout for jobs that are appealing to me.

if there's not really much of a choice, then tuition it will be.

haha! and my sis is getting me a PSP!

yahooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!

at first, she wanted to get me a DS lite.

but then, who cares?

she told me it's a version 3.52 and it's silver.

O_____O!

i think it looks like this, right?

but then, all great offers come with a price lah.

and i got to do well next semester.

but it's worth it i guess.

and i'm gonna have it real soon, not on my birthday!

THANK YOU MY DEAR SISTER OF MINE!

the end.

finally, i can get some super good quality rest.
from all the studying, from all the super late nights, from all the stress and worrying.
today marks the end of exams and semester and the start of holidays.
like finally man!!!

i seriously don't know whether i'll be able to pass.
kinda disappointing to make stupid mistakes that are worth so much of marks.
all i hope for is at least a C for biostats and Ds for MOBIO, biochem and instru.
i would be damn happy if i get these grades for this semester.
although my GPA would be really low, but all i hope is not to repeat any modules next semester.
especially MOBIO and instru.
all i can do now is just hope, what is done is done.
i know i did my best for all 4 papers, so...i should be happy! =)

more than a week of studying.
and now that the holidays are here.
i should not think too much about the results.
for now, i shall just relax and take a good break from all the schooling, studying and exams.
time to do what i do best, ENJOY!!!

stress level? maybe.

Your Stress Level is: 43%

You are somewhat prone to stress, especially when life gets hard. When things are good, you resist stressing over little problems. But when things are difficult, you tend to freak out and find it hard to calm down.

How Stressed Are You?

this explains why i always look so carefree and happy-go-lucky.
right now, stress level...50:50?
an extra 7%, due to the exams plus worrying about my revision for biochem.
won't have that much time to study on tuesday, about 8 hours to study and recap.
can't stay up too late either, biochem paper is at 9am.
which totally sucks ass.
biostats paper tomorrow, hope that i'll be able to do the paper.

Maybe - Kelly Clarkson

hot tempered these days.

i realised that i've been getting really hot tempered these days.
don't know why, but i can get kinda agitated over something, even if it's a statement.
i guess my friends in school don't realise that.
but at home, boom! flare up.
don't know what's wrong with me.
my blood can boil like mad over so many small lil things.
from noise to smell to statements and many many more.
i feel like a time bomb filled with hot magma.
maybe it's because of the exams...
maybe it's because i am tired...
i hate this whole exam period thing.

on the lighter note, i'm kinda proud of myself these 2 days.
managed to study 8 chapters of MOBIO.
well, there is still the last one which will be done later.
didn't exactly memorised my lecture notes, just understood the content.
no point memorising when the the actual paper for the module is on tuesday.
i'd forget the content within 24 hours or more if i were to memorise.
i would leave all the memorising of the lil small details on monday instead.

quite productive. but still, not enough.
let's see, only 30% of revision completed?
i still got biostats to read through, understand, know how to do and also do revision questions.
not to forget, biochem. so far, only covered carbohydrates metabolism.
couldn't study the rest of the chapters for metabolism on wednesday, my blood was really boiling to the max till the point where i've got no mood to even read a point on the slide.
there' still the first half of the semester's work to revise for biochem and plus, going through the exam papers.
and finally, instru. yes, i've already like studied 10 chapters, but that's for the retest.
and i'm not sure if the content is still in my head. there's still HPLC to study, practicals to read through, and also the calculations.
so many things to do, yet it seems like there isn't much time left.
exams are gonna last for 4 days straight, monday to thursday, with really shitty timings of the day.

well, everyone has that 24 hours.
it's a matter of how it's been used to the max.
although i'm feeling kinda tired, but i still got to continue.
the semester's gonna end real soon.
just need to go through the exams.
not only do i need to endure, i need to give it my 100+++%.

1 year.

today marks a really special day.

Happy Birthday to ABE once again!
hope you enjoyed your special day.

anyway, it's been 1 year since i created this blog of mine.
1 year. that's how fast time has past.
like so many things happened, within 1 year. all blogged on this blog.
so, Happy 1 Year to my blog!
arhaha...

exams are really drawing nearer.
and there isn't that much time left.
really worried for all the modules.
really afraid that i won't be able to absorb what i studied.
and yes, the papers themselves. what if i can't do the questions?
oh well, i guess i got to get back into action.
only managed to study 1 chapter of metabolism just now, not very productive eh.
target was to finish all 4 chapters on metabolism.
so...no time to waste! off to the lecture notes!