1 year relationship with braces.

1 year relationship with braces!!
so fast right?! and i just realised it yesterday.
just like how much my teeth have changed, the location of the dental clinic also changed.
same building, but different level. from level 6 to basement.
but the new clinic looks nice, much more modern than the old one.
the equipment more dope!! the chair where the patient sits got samsung tv stuck on it. but it's not used for watching shows lah. then also got this device that is used to take pictures of the patient's mouth. that's the reason why got tv, so that the dentist can view and take picture.
DOPE right?!

on monday, thawed 1 vial of cells then grow until today.
i was damn worried that the cells may die, cause never change media.
wednesday and thursday lab closed lah!!
and i also scared that the cells will die like genocide like that.
but thank goodness, checked cells under microscope, put on haemocytometer, viable cells still good!! 3 times more in fact.
then subcultured them. hopefully, cells dont die, no contamination, everything nice nice, cells happy, i happy. contamination is the most horrible thing that can ever happen. not only waste effort, waste alot of time.

next week common test!! lucky this time got 2 papers only.
proteo & BMP. and it's high time for me to start studying.
not much time to slack around.
and after common tests, HOLIDAYS!! my ass...
holidays still need to come back to school and do experiments lah!!
and it's like EVERYDAY need to come back, even on days when no subculturing or changing of media needs to be done. come back just to do cell counting!!
that's the life of year 3. no holidays at all!!

and i miss dance...
screw common tests!!

the thinking weekend.

i've been thinking alot for the weekend.
and i will endure and lay aside all unhappiness.
i still believe that things will work out, in a way.
i will do whatever i can to get things to move.
thanks to all those who were there for me!!
i really appreciate it alot.
i hope the week ahead would be a better one.

Through The Rain - Mariah Carey

saving $$$ plan - going well =)
what i wanna buy - decided =D
but still a long way to go.

i'll call this post 'titleless'.

ok, i am back to update.
got quite a number of things to blog about.
so here goes.

Tuesday
finally, we started our cell line. thawed 2 vials and cultured them in 2 T25 flasks. i got super sian. totally didnt want to put my hands inside the BSC and touch the cells or anything. oh well, but i managed to do cell counting.
had dance class which started at 9pm. btw, new batch of freshies started classes, and it kinda sucks to wait until 9pm. LOL!
dance class was tiring. wah, stretching was ARHHH!! squeeze balls! haha, then i realised that i can catch choreo slightly faster. but still, there are many things that i need to continue to work on. BASICS!!

Wednesday
well, nothing much happened, except for the fact that both T25 flasks containing our cells all died!! there was bacteria contamination in both flasks! but we still didnt know what caused the contamination : media/aseptic techniques/cells?
went for GL training and after training, peifen, serene, huixian, xl and me went to eat macs. at first i dont want to eat, save money!! but then, temptation lah!! then we all laughed until stomachache, peifen is too funny please!

Thursday
no CSC at 8am!! good, can sleep all the way till 11am. which i really did.
went for WISP and then went home. and then found out that the cause of the contamination was actually, our media!! damn! maybe the media was too not fresh, prepared that bottle since week 1 of school until now.
went home do genomics presentation slides, then slept until 545pm.
Post Fantazia Party at St James PowerHouse!!!
the party was just awesome. the atmosphere was great, the food was delicious, the music was so loud you can feel the bass, everything was just like wow!! everyone was nicely dressed for the party too! then when it was time for dancing, then alot of guys went out to freestyle in the circle. but i didnt!! i am too shy liao, and also feel that i not good enough, cant freestyle. guess that is something i should work on too. =)

Friday
nothing much actually. just that today's LSSS talk on forensic science was totally interesting!! although the speaker overshot by 30 mins, but still the talk was nice!! the way the speaker talked, and the funny things that he said, really made you wanna listen to him more. the best LSSS talk so far! everyone was paying attention to what he was saying.
managed to make a new bottle of media too. HOPEFULLY, it is not contaminated, and will not be. if not, it will be damn sian please!!
next week will be kinda problemetic. CCTA lab closed on wednesday and thursday, decontamination of BSCs!! dont know if can even enter the lab to view cells or not. well, got to do some planning for experiments next week.

thoughts:
yes, i am getting tired.
sometimes i just feel like i am totally not important, like invisible.
you just give me the feeling that you dont want to talk to me at all.
i just dont understand why.
i feel that there's no communication.

yes, i am getting super tired tolerating this.
i am not a very patient person, but i've got no choice.
i feel that i always give way, but you dont.
and i really dont understand why,
i can be so patient with you.

sometimes, i really want to be left alone.
rather than going through all these shit.
the way you talk to others, totally different from the way you talk to me.
and it's not only making me sick and tired, but pissed too.
i really am tired and i've got the urge to drink.
drink to drown all sorrows, worries, shitty feelings.
whatever it is, i hope things improve.

guess, it's time to be more independent.
i shouldnt depend too much on you.

a fun night!

yesterday evening, went to yvonne's house to celebrate kai jia's birthday in advance.
the plan was ladies night, but actually is not ladies night.
then everyone all hid at their respective places when she reached, then surprise her.
and her cake super dope, oreo cheesecake!! but because cut the oreo cheesecake until damn difficult, in the end, everyone just take spoon and eat from it. nice way of eating cake.
then after that went down to S11 for dinner. girls 1 table, guys 1 table. then all of us had zhi cha. ordered 5 dishes. then the food came like super fast, like havent 5 mins i think the person serve the food le. then when the all the dishes arrived, all of us call each other to eat. then everyone chiong the food together!! then like havent 10 mins over, everything gone!! super fast!
go see xiangtian's blog to see how fast we ate the food.
then after dinner, went miateck's house. then we played murderer!!
haha! fun game man! i kana murderer 2 times, hehehe!! play until alot of rounds, then by the time last round, i think it was about 1130pm le.
after that, at about 12am like that, then i headed home.
had a great time last night!!

and i cant wait for next week to start!!
monday: vesak day! NO SCHOOL.

tuesday: start cell line le, exciting! finally..

thursday: POST FANTAZIA PARTYYY!!!!!

ok, byeeeee.

the painful truth, time to save for what i want.

i've got to face reality, i've got to accept it.
the painful truth...
i am poor!! like seriously, no money at all.
i've been spending way too much this week.
and i got to change, suddenly there are lots of things i want to buy.
this time round, i will get the things i want.
maybe i should write the list of things i want, paste it on my table, and use it as a constant reminder to save more money.
like motivation like that, but i hope it will not only work, but last for a long time.
cant work now at all, there's seriously no time to even think of such things.
and i will be going for attachment later this year around october, but i doubt i will be able to save as most of the salary i get will, in the end, be used for daily expenses. transport, food, etc.
totally sian!
and now i've got a pathetic 90 cents in my private stash.
the start point! it's time to limit the amount of cash i use daily.
to spend $10 a day is way too much already.
ok, byebye. damn tired from all the stretching during technique class just now.

apologize.

i've been feeling tired for the past 2 days.
i came uber late for yesterday's proteomics practical.
1hr 45 mins late!! by the time i reached lab, it was time for 3 hrs of incubation time.
and i fell asleep during DDD tutorial.
hate it when lessons start at 8am in the morning.
yesterday was also the new batch's first GL training.
can see that they enjoyed themselves through the games.
very cute lah, they all. play scissors, paper, stone. then will stun for 1 second, then everyone will run and scream together. attendance also not that bad lah, 66 in total i think. just hope the dropout rate wont be so huge this year. imagine 50% dropout rate, left 33 GLs to run FOC. but at the end of everything, it's all about quality, not quantity.
then yesterday also medic, after so long. LOL! reminded me of that incident, which i will never forget.

and today, IS day! super boring i tell you.
i dont like year 3 IS modules. like so boring.
CSC was like just sit down and listen to lecturer talk. but lucky today was the lecturer's last day teaching us, got new one to take his place. can see that the new one is more interesting, more flexible. good thing next thursday, the new lecturer say no lesson for us! =)
but the following week will have another presentation. but still, the good thing is...no need wake up 6am.
then got presentation for WISP. it went pretty alright. and i seriously hate this one guy in the class, always like to shoot us questions which are like not really relevant. he asked my group the most questions lah!! so ugly still want ask so much questions, seriously got bitch face!
whatever, dont want talk about that bitch anymore.

supposed to start on cell line yesterday. but then, we realised that we got to autoclave bottles, which takes like 1hr 30 mins. so the only thing done yesterday, was autoclaving. =(
then now, denyse and i got to wait till next tuesday to start. because it's gonna be a long weekend, growth curve of cells wont be nice. cant wait to start!! everything is getting better, we just need more time. but the problem is, time wont wait for anyone. so things just need to go even more smoothly. and, i hope our cells will help us, by not dying so easily.

tomorrow's gonna be a long day. =(

dope picture!!

love this picture alot!!

imagine it printed on a t-shirt...

haha!!! =D

lesson of the day: blog responsibly!

happy mother's day, lao bu!!

Happy Mother's Day, 老 媽!!
haha! and got nothing for my mum.
i'm not feeling guilty ok. just wanna treat it was a normal sunday.
my mum asked me, "you know what day is today?"
actually i wanted to say sunday, but i just said mother's day.
then she answered, " then what are you going to do?"
i just replied, "nothing lor, everyday is mother's day."
today's lunch and dinner damn shiok! congee for lunch was as usual, nice!
dinner was better, got soup, vegetables, fish and pork (those type that got 3 layers one, cooked in sauce black black color one.)
all the dishes super nice!!
mother is best lah!!! love you mum!

and i am still not feeling guilty for not getting her anything. =)

and air-con is fixed!! hope this time really working properly.
if not, i sure will curse and swear.
last night slept until damn shiok, the power of air-con!

thoughts:
everyone has to move on, everyone has to get over things.
it's hard to accept, but life goes on.
you cant just brood over the same thing every single day.
it's no point thinking about it, when it had happened so long ago.
it not only affects you, but those around you.
it's true that it isnt too late to change, but its too early to judge anything in the future.
things may and can change, you never know.
everyone has to step down, everyone has to step back for awhile.
but it's our duty to guide those under us, at the same time, put our faith in them!
you said that putting faith in others is useless, but you dont understand how faith can change things.
everyone has their own limits. "to give your best", means doing whatever you can to help in a way. it means making use of your strengths and making yourself useful. it just means giving whatever you can give.
you said that you would do anything for it, but is your anything going to be your best? are you so sure that it's gonna be even better than your best if you said so? going pass your limits, in reality, is kinda impossible to achieve.
we can definitely do many things, in fact ALOT of things, but think about it, all those things that we can do, are we able to make sure that they are 100% well done?
we are not superhumans. we cant do everything. we cant solve every single problem and we cant change everything. that's life and we got to accept it.
you can talk about us seeing a tree and you seeing a forest. but sometimes, it's better not to look into the big picture. you see a forest burning, but i see a forest that is not well developed yet. the forest will not be gone, it will continue growing, expanding. what may seem bad to us now, may be beneficial to the future.
you just cant predict and judge the future.
put aside all thoughts that you have been brooding over away from you for the time being.
and solve one problem which is in you, and that is the denial to get over the matter. sometimes, you are just too stubborn.
i believe that everyone will do what they can, but you must have faith in everyone.

spoke too soon.

i guess i spoke too soon.
new air-con isn't giving out cool air, 2 days after installation!!
something must have went wrong. repairman coming back to fix the problem again.
hope this time round, the air-con really works.


went to see NRA audition day 1 on thursday.
really brings back memories man!
can remember how i felt during the audition, damn freaking nervous.
actually at first didn't want to go for audition, because i thought those that wrote their names during CCA fiesta then can go audition.
but still remember vanessa tell me say never write name also can go for audition.
that was when i decided to go, since i was wearing shoes. =)
can also remember the results also, super nervous. but it was great that all of us got through the audition.

anyway, i'm really glad that FYP is going kinda smoother than before.
although denyse and i still have not really started on the actual experiments, but things are starting to move smoothly. starting to hear more good comments from Yellow.Ass.Pig.
words like, "good work!", "you guys are making good progress, keep the momentum going."
it's soothing to my ears. it motivates me.
tuesday is the next meeting again, once again, hope things will still continue to go smoothly.
the past 2 months have been rough enough.
but i guess i cant complain much at all, everyone's going through the same thing.
everyone will face problems, it's just the matter of how much, how big and how different the problems are.


and after school yesterday, finally went out to relax.
nikki, jeremiah, davin, steph and i went town to have dinner.
some place at dhoby exchange, if i'm not wrong, the name is "Just Acia".
aiya forget liao.
had their set meal and i had salmon teriyaki. total: $11.90!!
expensive please!! but i wanted to try it. not bad lah, the salmon teriyaki.
and got free flow of drinks and ice-cream. so if make full use of the "free flow" thing, it's kinda worth it...i guess.
and the 5 of us chatted like alot! and it's always about the same few topics.
it seems like some things just never bore us, and it's like forever will talk about it one.
after that, we had tau huay!! quite long never eat already.
but sat there for awhile then left for home.

should i go for it? or should i take it slow?
i wanna learn too, but what's stopping me?
the money? the time?
needs some thinking through.

new air-con, dewberry cookies & locking with ian!!

past few days have been super duper HOT!!
and what's worse is when your air-con suddenly screws around with you by not giving out cool air. it's like you turn on your air-con, but your air-con gives you like...nothing. and so i had to depend on my fan to take over the job, temporary. and there was this night when i had to move my fan directly beside me, in order to sleep in peace.
and by the way, it's not only my air-con that spoiled. all the air-cons in all the rooms were not functioning properly. mine was just the last one to spoil.
but now, the suffering is all over!! stayed at home the entire saturday to wait for the repairman to fix up the new air-con. yay!! the wait was indeed worth it.
yea, and screw the weather! =)



and i am now in love with cookies.


i've tried both blueberry and strawberry. love both flavours but i prefer blueberry.
still yet to try peach flavour. dont know why lah, i just love these cookies.
my mum said it's cheap cookie, but i dont mind cheap, as long as it tastes nice to me. =)

anyway, today had locking workshop with ian!!
he is dope lah seriously. he got his own style, his own groove.
he taught the basics of locking!!
and for the first time, kiao ku-ing is alright!!
because he said when do locking must be relaxed, can kiao ku, and low is funky!
the routine that he taught us was simple but nice.
love the feeling when everyone doing the routine together. =)

anyway, back to work.

technique class own!!

another week is almost coming to an end.
time is like going whooooooooooosh!!
today had technique class, and i went alone.
(i'll still treat it as friday, although it's like saturday already.)
because denyse go eat tau huay, serene not feeling well, beesim busy.
lucky got peifen and yanlin entertain me during the 1hr 30 mins in clubhouse.

and peifen and i were like talking about our 'future' son.
NO! WE ARE NOT GETTING MARRIED!
neither are we together or something...
it's just for fun lah, entertainment purposes.
and both of us damn bitch lah, seriously.
like ultimate bitch crapping session!!
but both of us love it! =)

after that went to studio for class.
seriously, technique class damn tiring.
stretch until like mad sia! legs become jelly after all the stretching.
like seriously shake and wobble like nobody's business.
technique class so different from normal classes.
the music is like so soothing.
but although the stretching part was torturing, but still had a great time.
and today i kicked yvonne's head when doing choreo!
arhh!!! once again, so sorry! hope you are really ok.

ok, i need to break my habit of kiao ku-ing.
alot of people say i always hunch. and i am aware of it, but i always dont care about it.
so i need to hunch less. and i need to stretch more, super not flexible at all.
alright, go rest liao. tomorrow i think i sure ache one.

no school day.

it's public holiday today, no school. so i am gonna take this chance to blog.
and then get back to what i need to do later on.
past 3 days had GL recruitment drive.
loads of freshies went for the interview i heard.
managed to interview a few for the past 3 days, there are really loads of potential ones i must say. and there are those that made funny movements and statements that made me wanna laugh during the interview, but i had to control.
and the only freshie i came to know during FOC came for the interview too!! well, kinda sad that i only know 1 freshie for this year's FOC. that's the sad part of being a SGL, less interaction with freshies. still, being a GL is best.
recruitment drive really reminds me of my time, when i entered the interview room as a freshie wanting to be a GL, a welfare GL to be more exact.

had dance on monday. love the choreo, love the music.
but the behind part of the choreo abit difficult to catch.
squeeze balls lah!!! but i still felt good and happy after dance.
and i lelt my laptop in studio and by the time i realised it, i was halfway back home already.
one night without laptop, suck thumb man!
anyway, thanks xiangtian and jaei for helping me so much!! =D

and yesterday, Yellow.Ass.Pig finally complemented me through email.
he said, "Great Work!"
like finally he said that la, after so long.
hope he continues saying such nice and encouraging words. it makes me work better.
it would make me feel much better if he were to say it during meetings.
but still, he still isnt nice at all.

ok, i've got to get back to work.
bye!