i guess it's really over...
LSCT FOC 09/10 was yet another memorable camp, totally reminded me when i was a freshie. first of all, to the GLs (now SGLs), well done!! and i am really proud of you guys! although you guys have only been through 3 AGL trainings, which is really really short to me, but when i see how much you all have grown, i feel so happy for you guys! new batch of GLs are gonna come in soon, it's gonna be another different experience for you all.
secondly, to JIGSAW freshies, love all of you!! hope you all consider to join LSCT society and experience life as a GL. happy to see that you all became closer through this camp!! glad to be the acting freshie for Jigsaw!! keep the JIGSAW SPIRIT ALIVE yea?!
lastly, to my batch people, seriously, i dont know how much to thank you guys, for making my poly life so memorable. all the shit that we have been through, all the stupid things we did, all the fun times together, they are priceless!! thanks huixian for the video that you spent so much time on during camp! when i watched the video, i really really want to be a GL with you guys again! i really miss the times we all spent together, every single moment.
but sadly, this is not gonna happen again. now we are AAGL already!! 3 years in NP is over for us, and somehow, i feel that this is the end of our LSCT GL life. because it's going to be different next year. we are all gonna go our seperate ways. everyone's life is gonna change. i hope we all can still have more outings together!!
i miss being a freshie.
i miss being a GL.
i am gonna miss LSCT GL life.
VARDA 06/07
NERWIN 07/08
JIGSAW 09/10
well, this is it. i'm gonna stop blogging here.
reason being, this marks the end of my poly life. not gonna shut this blog down, shall just leave it as it is. yes, i am thankful for this blog being a part of me for the past 3 years. ok, less than 3 years, but almost.
alright, byebye. =)
Monday, April 13, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
miracle.
let's all perform miracles!
if you got no money,
perform a money miracle,
and money will drop from the sky.
if you are unhappy,
perform a happy miracle,
and happiness will flow into your veins.
if you are black and white,
perform a rainbow miracle,
and you will feel colorful.
if you are feeling hurt,
perform a healing miracle,
and your wounds will close.
just press DON! DON DON!! DON DON!! (x. xx. xx.)
but seriously, some things just cant be helped.
pressing "x. xx. xx." wont help either.
deal, dont dwell?
sometimes its just too hard.
we try, but what if we still cant do it?
heck care?
there are some things that we just cant heck care about it.
scream your lungs out?
but no sound comes out.
laugh over it?
then why do tears flow during the night?
share about it?
everyone has different problems, it's hard to truly understand, unless if they are in the same situation.
sleep and hope for a good dream?
and wake up feeling the same again.
then how?
actually, i really dont know.
but i've learnt something.
i am grateful to have these problems in my life.
these problems suck to the max, i dont want them in my life.
but still, they make me grow.
these problems make me think alot.
they have made me think like never before.
never had i think so much and so deep.
and even though i have thought so much,
the problems are still there!
you see, there are really some things that cant be controlled.
yup, so since i cant do anything about the problems,
i'll just treat these problems like guests/visitors/customers that are super guai lan to the max.
make them feel at home, let them give me hell.
just let them stay for as long as possible.
and the problems will one day leave.
when they leave, i give a big sigh of relief.
and say this to the problems...
THANK YOU & FUCK YOU!!!
and life goes on...
if you got no money,
perform a money miracle,
and money will drop from the sky.
if you are unhappy,
perform a happy miracle,
and happiness will flow into your veins.
if you are black and white,
perform a rainbow miracle,
and you will feel colorful.
if you are feeling hurt,
perform a healing miracle,
and your wounds will close.
just press DON! DON DON!! DON DON!! (x. xx. xx.)
but seriously, some things just cant be helped.
pressing "x. xx. xx." wont help either.
deal, dont dwell?
sometimes its just too hard.
we try, but what if we still cant do it?
heck care?
there are some things that we just cant heck care about it.
scream your lungs out?
but no sound comes out.
laugh over it?
then why do tears flow during the night?
share about it?
everyone has different problems, it's hard to truly understand, unless if they are in the same situation.
sleep and hope for a good dream?
and wake up feeling the same again.
then how?
actually, i really dont know.
but i've learnt something.
i am grateful to have these problems in my life.
these problems suck to the max, i dont want them in my life.
but still, they make me grow.
these problems make me think alot.
they have made me think like never before.
never had i think so much and so deep.
and even though i have thought so much,
the problems are still there!
you see, there are really some things that cant be controlled.
yup, so since i cant do anything about the problems,
i'll just treat these problems like guests/visitors/customers that are super guai lan to the max.
make them feel at home, let them give me hell.
just let them stay for as long as possible.
and the problems will one day leave.
when they leave, i give a big sigh of relief.
and say this to the problems...
THANK YOU & FUCK YOU!!!
and life goes on...
Sunday, March 15, 2009
cry
is it over yet?
can i open my eyes?
is this as hard as it gets?
is this what it feels like to really ___, ___?
can i open my eyes?
is this as hard as it gets?
is this what it feels like to really ___, ___?
Monday, March 09, 2009
right angle.
a 180 degree change over the past 3 years.
positive to negative,
'always noisy' to 'prefer to shut up',
extrovert to introvert.
the problems i faced,
have changed me too much.
it's so comfortable to bottle things up,
i'm so used to it, that it's difficult to change.
ok, i dont know why i am typing this.
my mind is at work again.
and it always work when i'm alone.
but right now, i really can see how much i have changed.
when i'm with people, i get drained easily and need to recharge after some time.
but last time, it's the other way round.
now, i enjoy thinking and exploring my thoughts and feelings.
right angle,
i'll try.
i'll not let situations change me anymore.
i will make the change,
change to be a better person,
a better son,
a better brother,
a better friend,
to be better in what i love to do.
positive to negative,
'always noisy' to 'prefer to shut up',
extrovert to introvert.
the problems i faced,
have changed me too much.
it's so comfortable to bottle things up,
i'm so used to it, that it's difficult to change.
ok, i dont know why i am typing this.
my mind is at work again.
and it always work when i'm alone.
but right now, i really can see how much i have changed.
when i'm with people, i get drained easily and need to recharge after some time.
but last time, it's the other way round.
now, i enjoy thinking and exploring my thoughts and feelings.
right angle,
i'll try.
i'll not let situations change me anymore.
i will make the change,
change to be a better person,
a better son,
a better brother,
a better friend,
to be better in what i love to do.
Friday, March 06, 2009
my lighthouse.
one day, i will get there.
but when will that day come?
the lighthouse now shines a dim light.
so dim that no ship can see its light from afar.
but the light is still there, just not noticed.
even if just one ship notices the light,
i would be happy.
i'll just keep trying, until that day comes.
i want the light to be noticed, not the lighthouse.
but when will that day come?
the lighthouse now shines a dim light.
so dim that no ship can see its light from afar.
but the light is still there, just not noticed.
even if just one ship notices the light,
i would be happy.
i'll just keep trying, until that day comes.
i want the light to be noticed, not the lighthouse.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
=Dchildhood favourite!!
just take a spoon and whack the nutella!!! =)
no bread, no spread, nothing.
just nutella and spoon.
not enough money to buy a jar?
just buy the very small version (1 serving).
yes, that satisfaction over the little things when still a little kid.
the small little things like nutella.
i used to get really happy, when i have new things like an eraser...then when i erase something, i will get very happy, because the eraser so good, erase until damn clean.
but now when i buy an eraser, to me it's just an eraser, and there's nothing to be happy about.
even things like new phone etc, it's just a new phone.
that feeling, i just dont feel it anymore.
i've not felt it for a very, very long time.
actually, i really miss the 'me' last time.
i miss alot of things that have happened.
i'm feeling okay with my life now, not that i hate it.
but things have changed too much,
and there's still more to come.
happy but not as happy as last time. =/
Saturday, February 21, 2009
birthdays on 20 feb!
thank you everyone who helped fill up the card with wishes and surprise denyse!
yup, thanks for sacrificing your study time! thanks for rushing down from school even after exam paper ended! surprise was goodz!!
and happy birthday kok siong!!! =D
overall, a great friday!!
but ended with some not so good news...
may have to prepare for the worst,
but hope things stay fine at the same time?
yup, thanks for sacrificing your study time! thanks for rushing down from school even after exam paper ended! surprise was goodz!!
and happy birthday kok siong!!! =D
overall, a great friday!!
but ended with some not so good news...
may have to prepare for the worst,
but hope things stay fine at the same time?
Thursday, February 19, 2009
lazy.
i am too free already!!
everyday just eat, sleep, play game, shake legs and watch movies.
i am becoming damn lazy already!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
super super lazy.
lazy to go cut hair, lazy to go start washing machine, lazy to go down buy food to eat, lazy to pack my room and throw away all my notes that i dont need anymore.
yea, ultimate lazy life!!
and i feel damn unhealthy now.
you know last time i attachment that time, feel damn healthy, even when i shit, i also feel good.
but now, i shit really feel like shit.
everyone,
study hard for exams!!!
and i need find job soon.
everyday just eat, sleep, play game, shake legs and watch movies.
i am becoming damn lazy already!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
super super lazy.
lazy to go cut hair, lazy to go start washing machine, lazy to go down buy food to eat, lazy to pack my room and throw away all my notes that i dont need anymore.
yea, ultimate lazy life!!
and i feel damn unhealthy now.
you know last time i attachment that time, feel damn healthy, even when i shit, i also feel good.
but now, i shit really feel like shit.
everyone,
study hard for exams!!!
and i need find job soon.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
life and death,
babies born, people die.
some are allowed to live as long as a ripe age of 80 plus or even more.
some only get to live for a few minutes.
and there are some that dont even get their first breath.
have you ever wondered about the choices you made in life?
what would happen if you were to make a dfiferent choice?
maybe things could have changed if you did this instead of that.
but whatever it is,
this week itself, taught me another thing.
we got to treasure and cherish the ones that we love.
yes, heard that a million of times!
but somehow, this statement only strikes us hard when someone leaves us.
still, let's try to treasure our loved ones.
but more importantly, be proud and treasure the life that you have now.
be grateful that we are all still breathing, able to walk, talk, dance :), and do many more things.
because there are people out there, who are not as lucky as us.
there are people out there who only have a few days/months/years to live,
but they make full use of what they have and they are happy.
let's not think about how much time we have left,
let us think about how wonderful we can make our present life be.
babies born, people die.
some are allowed to live as long as a ripe age of 80 plus or even more.
some only get to live for a few minutes.
and there are some that dont even get their first breath.
have you ever wondered about the choices you made in life?
what would happen if you were to make a dfiferent choice?
maybe things could have changed if you did this instead of that.
but whatever it is,
this week itself, taught me another thing.
we got to treasure and cherish the ones that we love.
yes, heard that a million of times!
but somehow, this statement only strikes us hard when someone leaves us.
still, let's try to treasure our loved ones.
but more importantly, be proud and treasure the life that you have now.
be grateful that we are all still breathing, able to walk, talk, dance :), and do many more things.
because there are people out there, who are not as lucky as us.
there are people out there who only have a few days/months/years to live,
but they make full use of what they have and they are happy.
let's not think about how much time we have left,
let us think about how wonderful we can make our present life be.
Friday, February 13, 2009
jordan, my nerwin freshie.
everyone wants that miracle to happen.
i also want to see jordan regain consciousness,
but we must all be prepared.
that we may never get to see him back at his feet again.
because chances of patients announced brain dead to regain consciousness,
is near impossible.
i am not being negative.
sometimes, it is not about the faith.
we just got to learn to be realistic,
and learn to accept.
it's hard for everyone, especially his family members.
but you know,
i believe jordan would be damn happy because he knows that everyone cares for him so much.
i also want to see jordan regain consciousness,
but we must all be prepared.
that we may never get to see him back at his feet again.
because chances of patients announced brain dead to regain consciousness,
is near impossible.
i am not being negative.
sometimes, it is not about the faith.
we just got to learn to be realistic,
and learn to accept.
it's hard for everyone, especially his family members.
but you know,
i believe jordan would be damn happy because he knows that everyone cares for him so much.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
unofficially graduated.
"cell culture is an art"
nb! this sentence super inspiring.
lucky to have such an encouraging and nice external examiner.
yay! FYP's over!! =D
nb! this sentence super inspiring.
lucky to have such an encouraging and nice external examiner.
yay! FYP's over!! =D
Monday, February 09, 2009
yes, thinking about tuesday...it's really driving me nuts!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
just feel like screaming my lungs out,
turning into a monster boss,
and kill this 2 people that i really feel like killing.
ok, i really am going crazy.
tuesday, i cant stop thinking about it.
is a day to look forward,
yet it could be a day that i never wish would come.
wait! it's tomorrow!!!
ok, i must calm down, and tell myself everything will be ok.
SHUTUP!!!
HOW TO TELL MYSELF TO CALM DOWN?!
Saturday, February 07, 2009
stressed and pissed.
yesterday was a really bad day,
1) screwed up internal presentation...
what's worse is, WHY TELL US OUR PROBLEMS WITH THE GRAPHS NOW WHEN YOU COULD HAVE TOLD US WAY BEFORE WHEN WE HANDED UP OUR REPORT LIKE LAST SEMESTER?!
yes, super pissed about it.
2) my bag kana wet paint. damn it la!
3) i walked for about 45 minutes trying to find far east square, and i got damn lost, hot and tired because my bag was damn heavy with my laptop inside. i walked from chinatown mrt to outram park mrt...walked back, walked one whole damn big round until i dont know where i was. in the end, i took a cab. yea, and because of what happened earlier, i was scolding in my heart ,"nbcb! where's the place?!!"
yes, but post production party really made me feel much much much better. =)
1) screwed up internal presentation...
what's worse is, WHY TELL US OUR PROBLEMS WITH THE GRAPHS NOW WHEN YOU COULD HAVE TOLD US WAY BEFORE WHEN WE HANDED UP OUR REPORT LIKE LAST SEMESTER?!
yes, super pissed about it.
2) my bag kana wet paint. damn it la!
3) i walked for about 45 minutes trying to find far east square, and i got damn lost, hot and tired because my bag was damn heavy with my laptop inside. i walked from chinatown mrt to outram park mrt...walked back, walked one whole damn big round until i dont know where i was. in the end, i took a cab. yea, and because of what happened earlier, i was scolding in my heart ,"nbcb! where's the place?!!"
yes, but post production party really made me feel much much much better. =)
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
parents.
to the 2 most important people in my life...
you guys just dont know how much pain you have brought to the ones around you.
maybe you both dont realise it,
you may think that it doesnt concern me or others,
because it's your 'adult' thing,
but seriously, it hurts seeing the situation you both are in.
...
you guys just dont know how much pain you have brought to the ones around you.
maybe you both dont realise it,
you may think that it doesnt concern me or others,
because it's your 'adult' thing,
but seriously, it hurts seeing the situation you both are in.
...
Monday, February 02, 2009
i just want to dance.
yiu!
bo!yiu & bo classes!!!
enjoyed both their classes alot!
learnt something after attending their classes,
must learn to relax and let go.
dont know why everytime got camera or people watching, will always forget steps.
yes! must learn to relax.
and i dont know why, when i look at myself in the mirror, i always feel that my posture sucks to the core.
ok, my confidence level like very low.
feeling sian after friday's medical checkup. pes A. =/
i feel it, my time's coming already. soon...very soon. i feel it, damn!
LOL! i sound like i'm going to die.
i just want to dance.
"it's not so bad."
yes, trying to convince myself.
but still...
but still...
Sunday, January 25, 2009
dad.
dad's back!
attachment ended!
dance classes has resumed! =)
i want to show my love.
but i just dont know how to.
how to talk, how to express, how to share, how to close the gap.
it's tough.
happy cny everyone!! =)
attachment ended!
dance classes has resumed! =)
i want to show my love.
but i just dont know how to.
how to talk, how to express, how to share, how to close the gap.
it's tough.
happy cny everyone!! =)
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
putting the pieces together.
well, this is it.
going through the most difficult phase of my life so far.
there will be more to come.
and it's not gonna be easy...
putting the pieces together,
healing,
finding myself,
what i truly desire,
i guess i really am on my own.
i am weak...too weak.
i need to learn how to believe.
going through the most difficult phase of my life so far.
there will be more to come.
and it's not gonna be easy...
putting the pieces together,
healing,
finding myself,
what i truly desire,
i guess i really am on my own.
i am weak...too weak.
i need to learn how to believe.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
i need you.
if it's a curse,
can it be broken?
if there is a choice,
can i choose?
if it is fated,
must i accept it?
i fell into the hole, i'm trapped.
i want to get out, but i've got no solutions left.
till now, nothing has changed.
i try to climb out, i fall again and again.
each time, suffering more wounds.
but there is the light,
why cant i follow it?
am i afraid?
or is it my faith?
i need to find the way,
and heal.
it will take some time.
*puts blog on silent mode.
i told myself, that 2009 will be a year of Change.
can it be broken?
if there is a choice,
can i choose?
if it is fated,
must i accept it?
i fell into the hole, i'm trapped.
i want to get out, but i've got no solutions left.
till now, nothing has changed.
i try to climb out, i fall again and again.
each time, suffering more wounds.
but there is the light,
why cant i follow it?
am i afraid?
or is it my faith?
i need to find the way,
and heal.
it will take some time.
*puts blog on silent mode.
i told myself, that 2009 will be a year of Change.
Saturday, January 03, 2009
no life, but like fun.and i realised, that my attachment left 3 weeks only.
after that, i dont have to wake up early everyday anymore. =)
but then, damn!! FYP final presentation.
nb! LSCT just doesnt want their students to be spared until they graduate hur??
tmd! make their students feel so happy when they go attachment after having such a torturing semester full of projects and assignments with FYP. then when they come back from attachment, then kill them again with the presentation. knnbccb!! =X
-_____-
time to get new shoes man.
Thursday, January 01, 2009
happy 2009!!!
HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE!!!
it's a brand new year!!
so, let's make this new year better than 2008!
i enjoyed 2008!!
thanks to everyone of you!!
every moment spent with you guys, i enjoyed and treasured them all.
2009 is here,
things are gonna continue changing.
my life is gonna change, graduating & NS. =(
but you know, i still want to dance and improve,
not alone,
but with NRA!!
i hope the bond gets stronger, so strong until is like some kind of glass that doesnt break.
***you know i watched some show today, the glass they make never break one leh, the person melt the glass rod and pull both ends then the middle is one thin fine thread of glass. and it never break at all, and it's said to be many times stronger than steel.
=))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
it's a brand new year!!
so, let's make this new year better than 2008!
i enjoyed 2008!!
thanks to everyone of you!!
every moment spent with you guys, i enjoyed and treasured them all.
2009 is here,
things are gonna continue changing.
my life is gonna change, graduating & NS. =(
but you know, i still want to dance and improve,
not alone,
but with NRA!!
i hope the bond gets stronger, so strong until is like some kind of glass that doesnt break.
***you know i watched some show today, the glass they make never break one leh, the person melt the glass rod and pull both ends then the middle is one thin fine thread of glass. and it never break at all, and it's said to be many times stronger than steel.
=))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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