ok, dont mind the previous post.
i'm alright now. =)
thanks shufang for forcing me to call you and listening to me!
thanks xiubei for the msn chat!
i guess the root of the problem is lack of communication. and i will work on it.
but it will take time.
recently, i feel like i got tired face.
what happen to my favourite phrase?
"dont show me your tired face."
ok, i should really take care of myself from now on.
with my current lifestyle, easy to get sick.
especially when always sleep late, never drink enough water and never eat proper meals.
i am just lucky i never tio fever.
but i am having a very bad nose.
2 more weeks and it's attachment!!
excited you know. because no need go school study, it's abit like holiday but just that you dont get to stay at home and rot the whole day.
happy that my attachment area is at buona vista, ayer rajah crescent to be exact.
near school, that's the main point. all i need to do is just take 74 to school. imagine if i am posted to tuas or some ulu place.
just hope the company's supervisor is a nice person.
FYP's ending real soon. 1 more week of cell culture shit work, plus report (dang!).
damn gross.
freshly squeezed camel/elephant flavoured poo juice.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
what hurts the most.
what hurts me the most, is when someone doesnt understand/support what you are doing even after explaining to him/her so many times.
all i wish is for you to understand. i am not asking for 1 million dollars, all i want is for you to understand, and in the end of the day, enjoy and appreciate what i worked for over the months.
am i asking for too much?
1 word like "jiayou" from you will really make me happy. but i dont feel you, i feel nothing coming from you.
i feel that telling you once or twice is enough, but more than that, it really makes me irritated and sad. it shows how much you care to understand what i am doing.
i really want you to come down to watch me on stage, but after today, i have doubts. =(
the only thing that i am quite happy about is my attachment area (nice place) and my supervisor (nice person).
all i wish is for you to understand. i am not asking for 1 million dollars, all i want is for you to understand, and in the end of the day, enjoy and appreciate what i worked for over the months.
am i asking for too much?
1 word like "jiayou" from you will really make me happy. but i dont feel you, i feel nothing coming from you.
i feel that telling you once or twice is enough, but more than that, it really makes me irritated and sad. it shows how much you care to understand what i am doing.
i really want you to come down to watch me on stage, but after today, i have doubts. =(
the only thing that i am quite happy about is my attachment area (nice place) and my supervisor (nice person).
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
random shit.
you know the recent tainted milk incident?
of course you should know. it's scary you know!
in fact, it's very scary. because so many food that we purchase and consume contains milk.
from cake to our favourite chocolate to other stuffs that contain milk etc.
if you are not scared, you should feel scared. that melamine thing is scary.
"Melamine by itself is nontoxic in low doses, but when combined with cyanuric acid, it can cause fatal kidney stones." (quoted from wikipedia)
it is also said that melamine is slightly soluble in water.
"Investigators say some raw milk suppliers, in hopes of making more profit, may have watered down their milk to increase volume and then added melamine, which is high in nitrogen and artificially appears to boost protein content."
i think they use cyanuric acid to make the melamine more soluble in watered down milk.
i dont know why, i read that paragraph, i very not happy leh. super play cheat can! increase the volume then add the melamine shit, just because it will make it look like it got more protein inside and they can make profit. then in the end, babies die.
those culprits should die too. instead of making them drink those tainted milk, i think they should just drink the melamine itself. now how does it feel to have stones inside them?
instead of putting melamine which only makes the milk look like got high protein content, i think they should add this in. got so much more protein but is damn fucking gross!!
stupid cheecheng showed me this video, lucky i wasnt eating.
ok, i very bored.
2 little girls made me pissed off today when i left home. i help them press button so that they can enter lift, and also wait for them to leave the lift then i leave. then in the end, one of them turn back and say, "BYEBYE UNCLE!"
KNN!! i look like UNCLE meh?! i only 18+ years old only lor, where got like uncle like that? even got taxi driver uncle say i look like 16 years old please. the taxi driver uncle then called uncle please, not me.
I WHERE GOT LOOK LIKE UNCLE?! HURHURHURHURHURHUR????!!!!
kids these days ar, they should open their eyes big big please.
no big no small ar they all. anyhow call me uncle...i where got look like uncle please?!
just say a 'byebye' enough already what, why must put uncle behind?
of course you should know. it's scary you know!
in fact, it's very scary. because so many food that we purchase and consume contains milk.
from cake to our favourite chocolate to other stuffs that contain milk etc.
if you are not scared, you should feel scared. that melamine thing is scary.
"Melamine by itself is nontoxic in low doses, but when combined with cyanuric acid, it can cause fatal kidney stones." (quoted from wikipedia)
it is also said that melamine is slightly soluble in water.
"Investigators say some raw milk suppliers, in hopes of making more profit, may have watered down their milk to increase volume and then added melamine, which is high in nitrogen and artificially appears to boost protein content."
i think they use cyanuric acid to make the melamine more soluble in watered down milk.
i dont know why, i read that paragraph, i very not happy leh. super play cheat can! increase the volume then add the melamine shit, just because it will make it look like it got more protein inside and they can make profit. then in the end, babies die.
those culprits should die too. instead of making them drink those tainted milk, i think they should just drink the melamine itself. now how does it feel to have stones inside them?
instead of putting melamine which only makes the milk look like got high protein content, i think they should add this in. got so much more protein but is damn fucking gross!!
stupid cheecheng showed me this video, lucky i wasnt eating.
ok, i very bored.
2 little girls made me pissed off today when i left home. i help them press button so that they can enter lift, and also wait for them to leave the lift then i leave. then in the end, one of them turn back and say, "BYEBYE UNCLE!"
KNN!! i look like UNCLE meh?! i only 18+ years old only lor, where got like uncle like that? even got taxi driver uncle say i look like 16 years old please. the taxi driver uncle then called uncle please, not me.
I WHERE GOT LOOK LIKE UNCLE?! HURHURHURHURHURHUR????!!!!
kids these days ar, they should open their eyes big big please.
no big no small ar they all. anyhow call me uncle...i where got look like uncle please?!
just say a 'byebye' enough already what, why must put uncle behind?
Monday, September 22, 2008
i am glad!
Happy 18th Birthday to Mia!!
i dont have photo with you. but i know i got take photo with you! but i dont know the photo with who.
you know, i am happy! =)
that heart:heart session. i am very happy i got closer to all of you all. and i've got to know you guys more that night.
it was a very matured session. and it was the very first i had, all those sessions i had with my other friends were mostly about bitching. and after that session, i realised i really do love you all!!
yay! i am so happy!
i dont have photo with you. but i know i got take photo with you! but i dont know the photo with who.
you know, i am happy! =)
that heart:heart session. i am very happy i got closer to all of you all. and i've got to know you guys more that night.
it was a very matured session. and it was the very first i had, all those sessions i had with my other friends were mostly about bitching. and after that session, i realised i really do love you all!!
yay! i am so happy!
Saturday, September 20, 2008
drift away.
within 1 year, so many things had happened.
my life is so different as compared to last year.
so much change within 1 year.
i feel that i have drifted away.
you know, it's damn sad when you see your friend whom you were quite close with, never notice you and just say a 'hi' when you tap him/her. and that 'hi' was just a 'hi'. it's not those kind of 'omg! so long never get to talk to you' kind of 'hi'. get what i mean?
you know, i feel so different now. i like my life and everything that i have now, from friends to dance to many more.
but when i think back 1 year ago, it makes me kinda sad.
that i have actually lost and drifted away from people whom i was once close with.
to the friends i have now, i dont want to lose you guys.
i've learnt to treasure.
damn that cockroach that flew into my room when i was closing the window!
tried to kill it by spamming alot of the cockroach spray at it.
but it didnt die!! its legs were still moving, damn gross!
i wanted to use toilet paper to grab it and flush it down the toilet bowl, but then when i see the legs moving, i hesitated.
damn scared when i grab it, it will crawl on my arms.
then i MANed up abit, just chiong liao. then i sit down there with toilet paper in my hands waiting for the time to grab it.
my mum buay tahan, just take the toilet paper from me and just grab the cockroach and flush it.
-______-''
i tried ok!! i could do it one lor! just that my mum took away my glory of ending that kukukroach life.
and the filters finally arrived. now i can continue growing cells. =)
ok, bye.
my life is so different as compared to last year.
so much change within 1 year.
i feel that i have drifted away.
you know, it's damn sad when you see your friend whom you were quite close with, never notice you and just say a 'hi' when you tap him/her. and that 'hi' was just a 'hi'. it's not those kind of 'omg! so long never get to talk to you' kind of 'hi'. get what i mean?
you know, i feel so different now. i like my life and everything that i have now, from friends to dance to many more.
but when i think back 1 year ago, it makes me kinda sad.
that i have actually lost and drifted away from people whom i was once close with.
to the friends i have now, i dont want to lose you guys.
i've learnt to treasure.
damn that cockroach that flew into my room when i was closing the window!
tried to kill it by spamming alot of the cockroach spray at it.
but it didnt die!! its legs were still moving, damn gross!
i wanted to use toilet paper to grab it and flush it down the toilet bowl, but then when i see the legs moving, i hesitated.
damn scared when i grab it, it will crawl on my arms.
then i MANed up abit, just chiong liao. then i sit down there with toilet paper in my hands waiting for the time to grab it.
my mum buay tahan, just take the toilet paper from me and just grab the cockroach and flush it.
-______-''
i tried ok!! i could do it one lor! just that my mum took away my glory of ending that kukukroach life.
and the filters finally arrived. now i can continue growing cells. =)
ok, bye.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
pale.
last night...
mum: "why you look so pale?"
me: "because i just got back from pract and i very tired."
mum: "you got eat anot? you look so pale, like never eat like that."
me: "got eat lah."
mum: "what you eat for dinner?"
me: "ban mian lor." (i lied, i didnt have ban mian for dinner. but i had late lunch.)
mum passed me $10 more and says "eat more ok."
how to eat more when nowadays food so expensive? LOL!
but still, mum still cares. =)
ok, abit pissed off with my school's lab.
it's not providing enough resources for me to continue experiments.
no filter, means cannot filter media.
no media, means cannot grow my cells.
no cells, means no extra results.
walau!! i just want more results, that's all.
today is another rest day for me. =)
mum: "why you look so pale?"
me: "because i just got back from pract and i very tired."
mum: "you got eat anot? you look so pale, like never eat like that."
me: "got eat lah."
mum: "what you eat for dinner?"
me: "ban mian lor." (i lied, i didnt have ban mian for dinner. but i had late lunch.)
mum passed me $10 more and says "eat more ok."
how to eat more when nowadays food so expensive? LOL!
but still, mum still cares. =)
ok, abit pissed off with my school's lab.
it's not providing enough resources for me to continue experiments.
no filter, means cannot filter media.
no media, means cannot grow my cells.
no cells, means no extra results.
walau!! i just want more results, that's all.
today is another rest day for me. =)
Monday, September 15, 2008
cleared.
exam results are out! and i am satisfied, because i've cleared all modules. so it's just FYP and attachment left. =)
and for the first time, i got an A+! but that module is a 2 credit module. but still, at least i got an A+ for something. =)
i thought left 3 more weeks to attachment, but then actually, it's exactly 1 month left. AHHHHH!! ok, it's just 1 more week. i shall not complain.
lesson learnt on friday:
never eat too much or fill up your stomach just nice, before KRUMP!! you will suffer. tested and proven.
yesterday, had dance practises for 7 hours!! 11am to 6pm. and never had lunch. breakfast was just a small piece of chocolate cake. stomach grumbling like mad, energy running out, brain cannot focus and concentrate, and legs super tired. not to forget, feeling fustrated as steps cannot enter the brain and also due to hunger. finally had a proper meal after that and it was good! went home feeling super drained and definitely had a good sleep.
but with a blocked nose in the morning. curse the cold heavy rain!
and i want to gain weight, 10kg would be a good number!!
and for the first time, i got an A+! but that module is a 2 credit module. but still, at least i got an A+ for something. =)
i thought left 3 more weeks to attachment, but then actually, it's exactly 1 month left. AHHHHH!! ok, it's just 1 more week. i shall not complain.
lesson learnt on friday:
never eat too much or fill up your stomach just nice, before KRUMP!! you will suffer. tested and proven.
yesterday, had dance practises for 7 hours!! 11am to 6pm. and never had lunch. breakfast was just a small piece of chocolate cake. stomach grumbling like mad, energy running out, brain cannot focus and concentrate, and legs super tired. not to forget, feeling fustrated as steps cannot enter the brain and also due to hunger. finally had a proper meal after that and it was good! went home feeling super drained and definitely had a good sleep.
but with a blocked nose in the morning. curse the cold heavy rain!
and i want to gain weight, 10kg would be a good number!!
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
dont know how to feel.
i feel really damn sian. sucks to do FYP!! i just feel damn sian of going to lab and do experiments, it's like never ending like that. and there is final report to start on already. ahhhh!! i want this to end quick. 3 more weeks, all i can do is endure and get through this phase.
i feel damn sad, i feel like an unfilial child. always coming back late. is like i am treating home like some kind of hotel like that. come back just to sleep, then next day go school. can see that my mum not very happy that i come back home late every night. i know she is worried, i know she miss me because everytime i come back home, she sleep already. but then...cant be helped what. haiiiii!! i hope she understands. =(
i feel damn tired. not only physically, but kinda mentally. so many things going on at the same time. i even find my experiments now abit messy already. now everything is like damn messy. muscles still aching from last friday, first time ache until so bad. last for 3 days and still aching.
sian + sad + tired = ???
poster presentation later, hope it goes well. =/
i feel damn sad, i feel like an unfilial child. always coming back late. is like i am treating home like some kind of hotel like that. come back just to sleep, then next day go school. can see that my mum not very happy that i come back home late every night. i know she is worried, i know she miss me because everytime i come back home, she sleep already. but then...cant be helped what. haiiiii!! i hope she understands. =(
i feel damn tired. not only physically, but kinda mentally. so many things going on at the same time. i even find my experiments now abit messy already. now everything is like damn messy. muscles still aching from last friday, first time ache until so bad. last for 3 days and still aching.
sian + sad + tired = ???
poster presentation later, hope it goes well. =/
Saturday, September 06, 2008
studio life.
past 5 days have been going to studio for dance practise. entering about 5pm and always leaving late at night. by the time reach home, about 12am already. i guess this lifestyle will stay until danzation ends. but i love it, serious.
yesterday had krump!! and it's damn tiring, and difficult. and i krump like a monkey!! the feeling is totally weird weird one. now my arms, chest and shoulder there all aching like mad. must practise on the basics!!
i hope i will be able to cope and juggle dance & FYP properly. just worried only.
just now went to watch suntec dance 2008. super sian, because it rained halfway. when the good part coming already then start to rain. then in the end, have to stand under shelter and watch from far far away. totally not enjoyable at all. then after that went home, because no money spend. and the long train journey really pissed me off.
i am glad i am back home, in my room, with air con on. =)
yesterday had krump!! and it's damn tiring, and difficult. and i krump like a monkey!! the feeling is totally weird weird one. now my arms, chest and shoulder there all aching like mad. must practise on the basics!!
i hope i will be able to cope and juggle dance & FYP properly. just worried only.
just now went to watch suntec dance 2008. super sian, because it rained halfway. when the good part coming already then start to rain. then in the end, have to stand under shelter and watch from far far away. totally not enjoyable at all. then after that went home, because no money spend. and the long train journey really pissed me off.
i am glad i am back home, in my room, with air con on. =)
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
keep on trying.
if you cant do it the first time, try again.
if you cant do it the second time, try again.
if you cant do it the third time, try again.
if you cant do it after doing it 100 times, try again.
just keep trying, even if it takes you 3 days to master something.
practise, practise, practise!
I CAN DO IT!!
if you cant do it the second time, try again.
if you cant do it the third time, try again.
if you cant do it after doing it 100 times, try again.
just keep trying, even if it takes you 3 days to master something.
practise, practise, practise!
I CAN DO IT!!
Monday, September 01, 2008
NRA freshie's camp 2008!
NRA Freshies' Camp 2008!
it was a great experience to be in camp comm, although it was my first.
i've learnt alot along the way, from planning to the actual camp.
thank you for giving me this chance to be part of the camp comm!
thank you for all of your guidance and support!
thank you for the laughters, it really lift up our spirits just by laughing for a few seconds!
thank you camp comm!! =)
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