time to really grow up!!

Deal, Dont Dwell.

=D

childhood favourite!!

just take a spoon and whack the nutella!!! =)

no bread, no spread, nothing.

just nutella and spoon.

not enough money to buy a jar?

just buy the very small version (1 serving).

yes, that satisfaction over the little things when still a little kid.

the small little things like nutella.

i used to get really happy, when i have new things like an eraser...then when i erase something, i will get very happy, because the eraser so good, erase until damn clean.

but now when i buy an eraser, to me it's just an eraser, and there's nothing to be happy about.

even things like new phone etc, it's just a new phone.

that feeling, i just dont feel it anymore.

i've not felt it for a very, very long time.

actually, i really miss the 'me' last time.

i miss alot of things that have happened.

i'm feeling okay with my life now, not that i hate it.

but things have changed too much,

and there's still more to come.

happy but not as happy as last time. =/

birthdays on 20 feb!

thank you everyone who helped fill up the card with wishes and surprise denyse!
yup, thanks for sacrificing your study time! thanks for rushing down from school even after exam paper ended! surprise was goodz!!

and happy birthday kok siong!!! =D

overall, a great friday!!
but ended with some not so good news...
may have to prepare for the worst,
but hope things stay fine at the same time?

lazy.

i am too free already!!
everyday just eat, sleep, play game, shake legs and watch movies.
i am becoming damn lazy already!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
super super lazy.
lazy to go cut hair, lazy to go start washing machine, lazy to go down buy food to eat, lazy to pack my room and throw away all my notes that i dont need anymore.
yea, ultimate lazy life!!
and i feel damn unhealthy now.
you know last time i attachment that time, feel damn healthy, even when i shit, i also feel good.
but now, i shit really feel like shit.

everyone,
study hard for exams!!!
and i need find job soon.

life and death,
babies born, people die.
some are allowed to live as long as a ripe age of 80 plus or even more.
some only get to live for a few minutes.
and there are some that dont even get their first breath.

have you ever wondered about the choices you made in life?
what would happen if you were to make a dfiferent choice?
maybe things could have changed if you did this instead of that.

but whatever it is,
this week itself, taught me another thing.
we got to treasure and cherish the ones that we love.
yes, heard that a million of times!
but somehow, this statement only strikes us hard when someone leaves us.
still, let's try to treasure our loved ones.

but more importantly, be proud and treasure the life that you have now.
be grateful that we are all still breathing, able to walk, talk, dance :), and do many more things.
because there are people out there, who are not as lucky as us.
there are people out there who only have a few days/months/years to live,
but they make full use of what they have and they are happy.
let's not think about how much time we have left,
let us think about how wonderful we can make our present life be.

jordan, my nerwin freshie.

everyone wants that miracle to happen.
i also want to see jordan regain consciousness,
but we must all be prepared.
that we may never get to see him back at his feet again.
because chances of patients announced brain dead to regain consciousness,
is near impossible.

i am not being negative.
sometimes, it is not about the faith.
we just got to learn to be realistic,
and learn to accept.

it's hard for everyone, especially his family members.
but you know,
i believe jordan would be damn happy because he knows that everyone cares for him so much.

unofficially graduated.

"cell culture is an art"

nb! this sentence super inspiring.
lucky to have such an encouraging and nice external examiner.

yay! FYP's over!! =D

yes, thinking about tuesday...
it's really driving me nuts!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
just feel like screaming my lungs out,
turning into a monster boss,
and kill this 2 people that i really feel like killing.

ok, i really am going crazy.
tuesday, i cant stop thinking about it.
is a day to look forward,
yet it could be a day that i never wish would come.

wait! it's tomorrow!!!
ok, i must calm down, and tell myself everything will be ok.

SHUTUP!!!
HOW TO TELL MYSELF TO CALM DOWN?!

stressed and pissed.

yesterday was a really bad day,
1) screwed up internal presentation...
what's worse is, WHY TELL US OUR PROBLEMS WITH THE GRAPHS NOW WHEN YOU COULD HAVE TOLD US WAY BEFORE WHEN WE HANDED UP OUR REPORT LIKE LAST SEMESTER?!
yes, super pissed about it.

2) my bag kana wet paint. damn it la!

3) i walked for about 45 minutes trying to find far east square, and i got damn lost, hot and tired because my bag was damn heavy with my laptop inside. i walked from chinatown mrt to outram park mrt...walked back, walked one whole damn big round until i dont know where i was. in the end, i took a cab. yea, and because of what happened earlier, i was scolding in my heart ,"nbcb! where's the place?!!"

yes, but post production party really made me feel much much much better. =)

parents.

to the 2 most important people in my life...
you guys just dont know how much pain you have brought to the ones around you.
maybe you both dont realise it,
you may think that it doesnt concern me or others,
because it's your 'adult' thing,
but seriously, it hurts seeing the situation you both are in.

...

i just want to dance.

yiu!

bo!

yiu & bo classes!!!

enjoyed both their classes alot!

learnt something after attending their classes,

must learn to relax and let go.

dont know why everytime got camera or people watching, will always forget steps.

yes! must learn to relax.

and i dont know why, when i look at myself in the mirror, i always feel that my posture sucks to the core.

ok, my confidence level like very low.

feeling sian after friday's medical checkup. pes A. =/

i feel it, my time's coming already. soon...very soon. i feel it, damn!

LOL! i sound like i'm going to die.

i just want to dance.

"it's not so bad."

yes, trying to convince myself.
but still...