try again.

haha, i failed napfa.
come on everyone, let's laugh together!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
nothing to be shameful of, i guess.
quite prepared to fail anyway, cause i totally never train a single bit.
and as expected, my pull ups and standing broad jump fail.
pull ups need to train liao la. standing broad jump, i missed by 3 cm to pass!!
dont know why always like that one, improve but still not enough to pass.
sit ups actually can get A de, but then i dont know what is the number to get A, then when i reach 40 i asked my partner, "how many sit ups to get A ar?"
then he dont know the answer, then when i do 1 more, just nice time's up. in the end, i needed 42 to get an A. =(
shuttle run, the most amazing thing. sec 4 timing = 11.2 secs. today's timing = 9.9 secs!!
i got shocked dao, serious!
2.4 km totally never train at all. timing only 11.59. and it's not good at all, cause it's a D. although i was one of the first few to finish. i was aiming 10.30.
OK! need to train my strength and jumping. must make sure i get silver, or better still gold! quite sian la, 3 stations i got gold, then 2.4km got silver but a sucky silver, then pull up and stranding broad jump nothing at all.
i believe i can do it. i just got to be disciplined, not lazy & determined to not want to go army 2 months earlier.

YOU KNOW! I WANT TO SPEND THAT EXTRA 2 MONTHS TO IMPROVE IN DANCE!!
and not enter army earlier and get screwed more.

anyway, thanks to those examiners who slowly took their own sweet time to return our student cards, i had to miss dance class today. =(
but in the end, i still wanted to go studio, cause my heart will itchy if i dont at least go practise abit on basics and learn what was taught for choreo.

ok, my body is gonna ache like mad tomorrow.
and my left foot got blister.
31st July performance coming!!
jiayou everyone! jiayou freshie item! jiayou just fine! jiayou church! jiayou bboy item!

MIND OVER BODY!!!

OMG!! NAPFA IS LATER!! AND RIGHT AFTER NAPFA WILL BE DANCE CLASS!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
I SUPER SCARED OF PULL UPS & STANDING BROAD JUMP!!
THEY ARE MY WEAKEST STATIONS!!!

OK, I DONT CARE LIAO.
I AM GONNA WRITE 3 WORDS ON MY ARM BEFORE I DO NAPFA.
MIND OVER BODY!!!
JUST GONNA CHIONG LATER!!
FOR SILVER, FOR MY FUTURE HAPPINESS!!

i shall rest my body now.
tomorrow sure very tiring one.
let's hope i dont faint during dance tomorrow.

UP!

went to watch TP production yesterday.

seriously, i got shocked dao.

i really do feel that they have improved alot since the last production.

their showmanship is really good!

personally, i enjoyed the show.

it's scary how fast people improve so much.

all the more i must jiayou!

31 july is coming!! full rehearsals!! performance!!

will be entering another busy week again.

to think that most assignments have been cleared, another 2 assignments popped out yesterday.

WHEN IS IT GONNA END?!

but good thing is, NO MORE IS MODULES FOREVER!

feelings:

everyone has their own limit.

i hate the way you talk to me and it got me really fustrated yesterday.

and to be able to tolerate this from you for so many months, i think my patience is really really good.

i am no longer angry already, i just dont feel like talking to you at all.

petty? i totally dont agree. because i got every right to get angry with the way you talk to me.

you just dont understand how people feel when you talk.

whatever it is, i will not talk to you, unless it's important.

what's the point of talking to you? i see no point at all.

because the replies i get are usually in a not nice tone.

calcium craze?

i dont know whats wrong with me.
because, i just finished drinking 3/4 bottle of chocolate milk without me realizing, until it was empty.
it's not 1 cup leh, it's 3/4 bottle!!
i'm addicted to milk. from fresh milk, to chocolate milk, to strawberry milk, to soybean milk.
i really wonder what is added inside the milk that makes me so addicted to it.

let's hope i dont lao sai k.
if i really do, is there a rehab centre to break this addiction?
if have, please help me. =)

gambatte joel!

i cant sleep.
i slept too much just now.
and i had too little sleep last night.

ok, anyway, i'll blog myself to sleep.
i got a feeling that i will PMS later.
no, it's Pissed Monday Syndrome. it's a monday thing, not a girl thing.
ok nvm.

anyway, this month really is a busy busy month.
and next month will be busier.
and the busy thing will continue all the way till end of year?
who knows, even next year, until i graduate.
assignments after assignments, FYP FYP FYP.
havent trained a single bit of napfa, yes i am damn screwed.
31 july performance is drawing nearer and nearer. and i'm very broke. alot to spend on, t-shirts, bottoms, shoes. i feel guilty getting money from my mother these few days and can see that my mum really trying very hard to spend less.
august, exams and then freshie camp!!
juggling alot of things at the same time altogether.
oh crap, there's final report to start on already!!
after exams, is chiong FYP all the way till october when attachment start.
hopefully, everything stays fine. supervisor quite happy from the last meeting. but then, the cells are growing abit weird weird. maybe it's normal during adaptation period, to have inconsistent weird growth.
alot of people are going through this phase where they just want to breakaway from all the projects and stuff. it's really tiring. jiayou to everyone going through the same shit!! we will pull through this pile of mountain of crappy shit!
i hope i will be posted to heaven when doing attachment.
heaven as in, workplace is nice, staff are friendly, supervisor is understanding, and everything nice. ok, i'm just dreaming. but you never know, maybe such heavenly workplace do exist in singapore. just got to cross your fingers, hope and see how lucky you are.
end of the year, danzation!!! i cant wait, seriously. but i'm worried at the same time. because i will be having attachment around that period, which means, i got to rush to school after attachment. who knows, may even miss some practises due to clashing of time.
but i believe i can do it!!

ok, i've blogged quite abit. i shall sleep.

some random thoughts.

random thoughts:

1) time is flying again!

2) mental training, it's hard trying to stay focus when tired. but it's possible.

3) i so dont feel like seeing supervisor about FYP.

4) drinking milk/soybean milk everyday really makes you shit well.

5) i dont know if i can do it well, but i will give my best.

6) assignments are like never ending!!

7) i am freaking poor.

8) i hate deepview (a stupid software used in 1 of the modules i'm taking this semester.)

9) i really think i think alot sometimes.

10) i need strength for control and i need to train for strength.

11) supervisor almost scared me to death when he emailed me.

12) i am glad that my efforts arent wasted.

13) my musicality sucks.

karma.

my orange pencil case, i found it back! =)

yay!

and i was actually quite sad when i couldnt find it since wednesday.
because the pencil case was my birthday gift when year 1.
and i really like my calculator, so much nicer than the SHARP calculator i used in secondary school. super ugly that model.

did a good deed today.
summer, sherlene and i, we found a nokia phone at BK while having dinner after SMU production.
it suddenly rang and vibrated on the table beside us, and got french fries box on top of it.
the 3 of us decided to be good people and returned the phone to the owner. losing something is not funny matter.
the phone got picture of a female. and i thought it was a tranny, serious. it looked like one.
then the owner was a male, cause the voice sounds like one. scary hur, almost thought that the owner is really a tranny. turns out, the owner is really a male, no sex change at all, so the picture is his girlfriend i suppose.
WHATEVER IT IS...
we will have good karma, i believe we will!!
and our good karma will be...becoming dope in dancing. =)

but it comes with hardwork. the good karma will come after that.

fallen down.

i need to learn how to focus more, even though i may be tired/hungry/in pain/stressed.

what about you?

Question of the Day:

WHAT ABOUT YOU?


phew! genomics presentation postponed, WISP slides done!!

hate assignments!

another week gone, and a new week coming.
and i've got hell loads of assignments due on 11 July (friday)!!
it's gonna be a tiring week.

thursday: WISP presentation
friday: CSC assignment, genomics presentation, BMP presentation, LSSS assignment

ok! looks little, but actually workload quite alot, especially CSC assignment.
and i still need to plan FYP experiments, calculate all the shitty cells. experiments, so far not good again, wasted 1 week because our cells we thawed suddenly died. wasted another week, because we found out that the cells that we cryopreserved all died. lucky TSO helped us monitor our cell line.
time is super tight lah!! hope can reach the main part of the project. must believe!!

ok, since got so much to do until end of next week. need to manage my time properly, need to have the discipline. i must slap myself if i procrastinate and wait until the day before then rush everything. actually if i really use the "slap myself when i procrastinate" method, i think my face would be damn swollen already! ok, whatever.

and fuck! NAPFA is this month!! i havent train a single bit!! i think i am so dead. it's high time to start training, my strength is super weak, my standing broad jump is like cannot make it, although i'm tall. i shall go for the test this month, see what i need to improve on, then chiong and take 2nd time! but still, i shall start training.

mind over body!

farewell daphne!! =)

3rd July!

a day to remember.

i finally became a very BAD student and skipped IS lessons!!!

yes! i'm a very dilligent student you know. i attended all IS lessons since year 1 and my laptop display background is an apple with books, for show only!

i so deserve ADs & GPA 4.0 lah!! =/

went to Terminal 3 with xiubei, huiting, shihua and melise!

go see daphne off as she left singapore to further her studies.

we left the studio very late, like 615pm. then rush to changi airport. the 5 of us in the train played alot of games. then we reach changi mrt, faster chiong to T3, by the time it was like 15 mins before 8pm.

we all somemore got lost, at T3 basement 3 carpark.

chiong like mad! we kept telling ourselves, "must reach there! 3 mins left to 8pm! just chiong! mind over legs!"

and WE MADE IT ON TIME!!!

like really ON THE DOT! when we reach liao, SHOWTIME!!

danced to "Desperate" and chien yen's chicken dance and surprised her.

the last group photo with daphne!!

to daphne: good luck in everything you do! take care & bon voyage!! everyone will miss you. =)

i need to have the fighting spirit.

i felt so fustrated with myself.
maybe i was tired due to lack of sleep.
wake up call, joel!!
remember 2 months?!

i need to push myself much much more, i need to have that fighting spirit in me!!
what i need now, is rest & yoko yoko.

things are just starting to begin.
ride it!!