if it's a curse,
can it be broken?
if there is a choice,
can i choose?
if it is fated,
must i accept it?
i fell into the hole, i'm trapped.
i want to get out, but i've got no solutions left.
till now, nothing has changed.
i try to climb out, i fall again and again.
each time, suffering more wounds.
but there is the light,
why cant i follow it?
am i afraid?
or is it my faith?
i need to find the way,
and heal.
it will take some time.
*puts blog on silent mode.
i told myself, that 2009 will be a year of Change.
