i just feel useless. i can't get things done the way it should be done, and i screw things up. it is just saddening to see myself feeling all so useless and can't do anything right. it seems like i can't do something all by my own...and in the end...someone has to help me with it and it makes me feel bad.
till now...i don't see much strengths in me. all i see are weaknesses. even if i have some strengths, i can't seem to put them into good use. i just feel vulnerable.
i envy people...at the same time hating myself. i am no longer the person who once loved himself. those smiles he gave are no longer real.
i feel like an empty shell lying in a dark place, feeling helpless.
even i can't save myself.
