damn! i'm super worried about myself now!
it all started during sophan's item yesterday because had to dance in front of everyone.
i screwed up big time! super duper nervous when i was in front of everyone. could feel my legs shaking, then in the end, lock also cannot lock properly, movements all become small, then got one part my mind went blank, then timing out!
damn! i need to learn how to be less tense when it comes to this kind of situation, and i need to be much more confident.
yesterday also went for TPDE production. i think it was good, but $15 abit too much. because i felt that the whole thing was kinda short. i was expecting it to be longer. the energy that the dancers brought out was good, especially modern dance. and i was also expecting more hiphop items too. anyway...
after the production, i kept thinking about the showmanship, the energy, the confidence. i dont know how sia?
then today, went to school again to practise bo jian dai, and also to show Ann. nervous again lah!! damn man, seriously! then screwed up so much until i became kinda pek chek with myself. morale went down, down and down.
shit sia! with my current standard now, confirm screw up like fuck one! then plus somemore get nervous so easily, is confirm 100% will really screw up like big fuck one!
now just normal practise dance in front of everyone and also show Ann only, can get so nervous and screw up so much...just imagine, during Song & Dance how??
guess i got no other choice but to keep on practising and practising. get the steps all right and clear. then about the nervous part, not sure about it. need to get used to it. think it takes time bah...
i've got to really jia you!
